Today is week 2 since I started working on taking care of myself again. In the first week, all I did was replace soda with water. I am now soda-free for 8 days! My goal for this week is to double the amount of daily water intake. Im taking this journey in baby steps. I’m starting slow, making one change at a time.
I used to think I understood the concept of taking baby steps but to be honest I didn’t really “get it“. I think my idea of baby steps meant to take a few baby steps the first week then forge ahead running like a track star. Unfortunately the end result usually meant disaster, even when I had some great progress for a short stint. No that’s not the concept of baby steps.
It takes a while for babies to get up and walk. It’s not an overnight process or a one week, one month process. It actually starts with scooting, then crawling, then walking and falling, and getting back up…repeat…walking, falling and getting back up. I never liked falling. I still don’t. I never saw falling as part of the process. Falling meant failure to me and I would sit there and be paralyzed causing me to just give up. I’ve come to realize that success does not happen to those who never fail but success comes to those who fail but keep getting back up and never quitting. “Baby steps = GIANT results” – a friend of mine has been saying this to me lately. I think it has finally sunk in. I’m sure that God has put this woman in my life for such a time as this, a time for me to get back to being serious about taking care of myself.
When I started this journey 4 years ago I made great progress but had many failures. I couldn’t get past my failures and I couldn’t embrace my progress because I set the bar so high that I couldn’t reach it. In doing that I ended up sabotaging myself and gained back most of the weight I had lost. It was a terrible cycle for me. I have finally learned that I cannot and will not get to my goal of losing all the weight I want to lose in an unrealistic amount of time. I have to give myself some grace to fail and grace to get back up. I have to celebrate the small victories because as time goes on and I continue to keep walking those victories will help move me forward.
Obviously I cannot do this alone, I need the power of the Holy Spirit to help me as I develop the fruit of self control. It is time, I know I’m ready. I see God’s hand everywhere shifting things and bringing people into my life who are on the same journey. It’s essential that I pay attention and not let this appointed time pass me by. There is real work for me to do for the Kingdom of God and I need to be prepared spiritually and physically to be able to fulfill the tasks.
I am excited to start this journey yet not so excited that I forget the journey starts one step at a time. No sprinting, no racing, no striving, no quitting…just keeping my focus on Jesus, the author and finisher of my faith. He will keep me walking slow and steady as I yield and surrender to His plans for me. I can’t wait to see the results, even it it takes a long time. I’m in it for the long haul, I’ve made up my mind and my decision is firm. Thank you for joining me in this journey.
God Bless you all.