I missed posting days 3 and 4 because I got really sick. I had a terrible stomach bug that incapacitated me for more than 35 hours. So I basically slept 2 days away because I could do nothing more. Nonetheless I am thankful for that sleep as I feel much better this morning. I happened to open up a productivity app on my phone that I was using a year ago and I read one of my goals which was to write down foods that hurt me. I am thankful that I found that because I am going to implement that again to my daily routine. I cannot afford to have stomach issues take me out for two days again.
As much as I wanted to leave my post at the last paragraph and move on to some good news, I just cannot move on. You see I’m sure that my stomach virus was the direct result of my own doing. I know that I cannot eat certain things and yet my flesh tends to win over when I’m not really thinking through what I’m doing. So this two day experience has exposed the fact that I’m eating mindlessly and it’s hurting me. This picture kind of sums up what I see in myself right about now.
While I felt that the Lord convicted me that my stomach virus was the direct result of my own doing, my nurse friend advised me that I could not have caused my own fever and hot and cold flashes. Okay, point taken but I still know that I have been engaging in mindless eating which is gluttony.
Proverbs 23:20-21 ESV says, “Be not among drunkards or among gluttonous eaters of meat, for the drunkard and the glutton will come to poverty, and slumber will clothe them with rags.” I don’t drink but to be associated with a drunkard as someone who is engaging in gluttony causes me to sit up and take notice. It’s not something new to me. I have battled with being a food addict for a very long time. I was able to kick every other bad habit but this food thing is literally the hardest. I mean think about it, no one needs to smoke, drink or do drugs but we have to eat for survival. So to me being a food addict is way harder than kicking any other habit.
The good new is that I don’t have to remain in this condition and I have already taken this to the Lord in prayer and repentance. I am thankful for His forgiveness and grace. I don’t have to be bound by the addiction to food because John 8:36 says, “Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.” I will keep pressing into the Lord to help me walk away from this mindless eating. I will make strides in working my goals and lean into the Lord Jesus as my foundation as I build my temple.
Now for the good news of the day. I am down 2.8 lbs since last week and I am truly thankful for this. Maybe it is from being sick two days and maybe not, I don’t know for sure but my goal is not to find those 2.8 lbs again. I will press on in the journey, no turning back!
Thanks for walking with me on this journey!