(Day 6) Thankful for Friends

proverbs27_9ljmToday was a really tough day. I’ve come face to face with the reality that I am overwhelmed and my spinning plates are falling all over the place. I couldn’t even get this blog post done without hitting some key to cause my whole draft of 500+ words to disappear. POOF GONE!

Breathe…

This week has been a mess. I go back to Monday when I got some news that caused me a moment of panic but I already had the answer because the Lord gave it to me.

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:7 ESV

I wish I could say that I have rested in the truth of those words. The reality is I didn’t. What I thought was peace was really denial. My mouth said the right things but my actions spoke louder. I ran back to the same habits I’ve been running to for years and years. Food. I ran to food yet I didn’t even realize it until today because I was in denial. Yes I knew that the sickness I had was mostly brought on by my own doing but while I was down, while I was sick, while I was in a down time mode even if by force, my focus was not on the Lord. My gaze went from being on Jesus to being on myself. Oh I glanced at Jesus now and then but the steady gaze that I’ve been holding for a while was interrupted. If we were sitting at a table across from one another you would have just seen me slump in my chair and smile. Of course the words that I was writing before these words were lost. They were truth but only surface truth. I believe the Lord wanted me to be open and vulnerable. He wanted me to get to the root of the issue rather than just talk about the outward things that had a small part to play in the way my week has gone.

This realization causes me to appreciate my friends that were there for me today even more. I had two Skype calls with a friend who prayed for me. She also rounded up others to pray for me. I started crashing around noon from not having enough sleep and waking up extra early. I took a 10 minute power nap on my lunch break but it didn’t help much. I was tired, empty and the fire inside me that had been burning with such intensity had dwindled to a slight flicker. I had an event that I was supposed to attend this evening that I had to back out of and I felt really guilty about it. Then my wise friend who knows me oh so well told me that I needed to rest, heal and prioritize. Her words were like a text from Jesus as she pointed out some things that I knew but I was in denial about. My response was that she was right and I am going to refocus, reprioritize and rest. So that is exactly what I am going to do. I am so thankful for friends. Friends who are not afraid to speak the truth in love. Friends that pray and pray some more.

Proverbs 27:9 NLT, “The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense.”

Until tomorrow…

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(Day 18) Be Still

photo-1425969195258-f23f055ef995This morning at church we had a few minutes of being still in the Presence of God. It was such a time of refreshing for me personally since my life has been so overwhelmingly busy. We live in such a fast paced society that many times we have trouble finding the time to really slow down and spend an intentional time of stillness. We read in Psalm 46 verse 10 –  “Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” Do you sense the heart of God beckoning you in this verse?

Today as I read this verse I am seeing Father God extending His hand toward me inviting me to sit on His lap and just listen to Him. He says, “Be still and know that I am God”. I feel a sense of protection in this verse. He is God and He will be exalted among the nations and in the earth. God is the highest level authority there is. He is in charge of it all. I take comfort in that knowledge and I rest today.

As I look at my schedule for this week, I see so much to do and yet so little time. Just thinking about it all causes me to feel heavy and burdened. How can I balance it all out to put God first and make time for exercise and healthy meals? My intentions were to prepare meals in advance this weekend and yet it was not done. Already I am feeling overwhelmed, then I read what Jesus said,  “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 ESV

Deep breaths.

I will be still. I will take Jesus’ yoke upon me and learn from Him and find rest for my soul. I cannot go into this week feeling stressed. I will not go into this week feeling stressed! Philippians 4:6-7 says “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” I will take my schedule to the Lord and ask Him to help me to walk out my week with a peace that surpasses all understanding. I will be anxious for nothing and be still. I am not perfect and I don’t have to be. I just need to take it one step at a time.