(Day 6) Thankful for Friends

proverbs27_9ljmToday was a really tough day. I’ve come face to face with the reality that I am overwhelmed and my spinning plates are falling all over the place. I couldn’t even get this blog post done without hitting some key to cause my whole draft of 500+ words to disappear. POOF GONE!

Breathe…

This week has been a mess. I go back to Monday when I got some news that caused me a moment of panic but I already had the answer because the Lord gave it to me.

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:7 ESV

I wish I could say that I have rested in the truth of those words. The reality is I didn’t. What I thought was peace was really denial. My mouth said the right things but my actions spoke louder. I ran back to the same habits I’ve been running to for years and years. Food. I ran to food yet I didn’t even realize it until today because I was in denial. Yes I knew that the sickness I had was mostly brought on by my own doing but while I was down, while I was sick, while I was in a down time mode even if by force, my focus was not on the Lord. My gaze went from being on Jesus to being on myself. Oh I glanced at Jesus now and then but the steady gaze that I’ve been holding for a while was interrupted. If we were sitting at a table across from one another you would have just seen me slump in my chair and smile. Of course the words that I was writing before these words were lost. They were truth but only surface truth. I believe the Lord wanted me to be open and vulnerable. He wanted me to get to the root of the issue rather than just talk about the outward things that had a small part to play in the way my week has gone.

This realization causes me to appreciate my friends that were there for me today even more. I had two Skype calls with a friend who prayed for me. She also rounded up others to pray for me. I started crashing around noon from not having enough sleep and waking up extra early. I took a 10 minute power nap on my lunch break but it didn’t help much. I was tired, empty and the fire inside me that had been burning with such intensity had dwindled to a slight flicker. I had an event that I was supposed to attend this evening that I had to back out of and I felt really guilty about it. Then my wise friend who knows me oh so well told me that I needed to rest, heal and prioritize. Her words were like a text from Jesus as she pointed out some things that I knew but I was in denial about. My response was that she was right and I am going to refocus, reprioritize and rest. So that is exactly what I am going to do. I am so thankful for friends. Friends who are not afraid to speak the truth in love. Friends that pray and pray some more.

Proverbs 27:9 NLT, “The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense.”

Until tomorrow…

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(Day 28) Being Intentional Today

Today I was intentional about starting my day with the Word of God. Today I was intentional about meeting my step goal and actually beat my goal with 6016 steps. Today I was intentional about prayerfully writing out my schedule. Today I was intentional about eating healthy. The theme that kept running through everything that I was doing today was the word TODAY. I realized that this has been the ongoing theme for the past few days and the Lord absolutely brought it to full revelation today! We are only promised today. Do you understand what this means? I thought I did too but I see this in a new light today. There’s that word again!

Let’s take a look at a few passages of scripture and then I will explain what I believe the Lord has been saying to me.

Deuteronomy 30: 15-16 NKJV  “See, I have set before you today life and good, death and evil, in that I command you today to love the Lord your God, to walk in His ways, and to keep His commandments, His statutes, and His judgments, that you may live and multiply; and the Lord your God will bless you in the land which you go to possess.”

James 4:13-14 NKJV  “Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, spend a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit”; whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away.”

Hebrews 3:12-15 NKJV “Beware, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief in departing from the living God; but exhort one another daily, while it is called “Today,” lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulness of sin. For we have become partakers of Christ if we hold the beginning of our confidence steadfast to the end, while it is said:“Today, if you will hear His voice, Do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion.”

Today the Lord sets before us the opportunity to choose life and good or death and evil. Today we need to focus on what we are doing in this moment. While planning for the future is good, we never know if we will see tomorrow so we have to make the best of what we have right in front of us and that is today. We are told to exhort one another daily, while it is called “Today” so we will not have our hearts hardened by sin.

You may be thinking to yourself, “what does this have to do with exercise or losing weight?” Everything. It’s bringing the physical and the spiritual together and finding a balance. My desire has been and always will be to honor God with my body. That means while I weigh 372 pounds and when I weigh 172 pounds, my desire will not change. The journey is a long process but the truth is we only have today. I can’t worry about what’s happening tomorrow because I may never even see it. I have to take care of my body today and keep my eyes open to the world around me. I have to be ready to really see the lost and dying around me. Today I must be intentional to care for myself and others. Today I must be intentional to be found in the place of prayer for those who need to know Jesus.

In addition to working on honoring God with my body, I have been reading about revivals and awakenings. My heart is stirred to see the church wake up from its slumber and stop glancing at Jesus and begin to gaze upon Jesus. We have been hearing so much about judgment coming to our nation but I say we must stand in the gap for our nation. I have one more scripture today to share and I hope that it stirs you as much as it has stirred me.

Ezekiel 22:30  “So I sought for a man among them who would make a wall, and stand in the gap before Me on behalf of the land, that I should not destroy it; but I found no one.”

I want to be found as one who will stand in the gap for my city, my county, my state, my nation and the rest of the world. I want to be one who weeps and mourns over the darkness that is getting darker in our generation. I believe as the darkness continues to grow darker the Light of Jesus Christ is going to shine brighter than ever before.

I don’t know what you believe or don’t believe but I know God is real, I know Jesus is the only way to the Father and I know that the Holy Spirit has been given to us as a gift.

John 14:6 NKJV  “Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.”

Acts 2:38 NKJV  “Then Peter said to them, “Repent, and let every one of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins; and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.”

Today is all you have. Today is a great day to be saved.

John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”

2 Corinthians 6:1-2 NKJV  “We then, as workers together with Him also plead with you not to receive the grace of God in vain. For He says: “In an acceptable time I have heard you, And in the day of salvation I have helped you.” Behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation.”

Today I have been intentional to share with you my heart. Please let me know if you need prayer or want to know more about having a true relationship with Jesus Christ. Thank you so much for stopping by.