(Day 12) Thankful for Doctors

medical-563427_640Went to see my doctor today and I am so thankful that she is not the sort that just throws pills at me. While she did alter my current medication, she didn’t try to push the newest drug on the market. Many of my former doctors seemed to just be in the practice for the pharmaceutical kickbacks and it used to drive me crazy. I am thankful that I don’t have to deal with that anymore. I was heard for my concerns and we had a great discussion.

The other thing I like about my doctor is that she doesn’t try to push weight loss surgery down my throat. I went down that road about 11 years ago even to the point of having a surgery date set up but God said No, So when God says NO, it means NO! I had a few doctors that always tried to push the gastric bypass. I’ve had many friends who had the surgery, some with good success, some with short-term success and some with no success. God made my organs to work perfectly, I am the one that chose to eat too much food and be lazy so why should I surgically alter my body because of my lack of self-control.

Some may not agree with what I just said and that’s okay. We can agree to disagree. I am just saying this about me. It’s a personal issue between every individual and God. For me, it’s not an option. My option is to continue to yield to the Holy Spirit and allow Him to lead and guide my journey to weight loss. My doctor supports me as well and she is willing to help in any way even if it’s just holding me accountable by checking in with her on my progress. I like that very much. I look forward to getting my blood results to see if any of my life changes so far have helped with any of my values.

IMG_1934I am looking forward to getting a handle on my fatigue so I can get back to exercising. Somehow I think I need to push through it and stop making excuses. I really am exhausted though and it’s not because I am lacking sleep. I will get there. I did gain 3.4 lbs, this week though but I will not let it get me down as I didn’t do anything to contribute to losing weight this week so what more should I expect. Hey, this is a journey not a sprint so I will just keep moving forward.

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(Day 10) Thankful for Strength

philippians4_13ljmaI’ve shared that I have been battling fatigue and I finally have a doctor’s appointment scheduled. My day 10 was a full day of activities including work and helping others. I was exhausted! Thankfully I found that the scripture that says “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” (Philippians 4:13) is true. I am relying on that strength to continue to get me through each day this week. I am also relying on the Lord to give wisdom to the doctor in what to do for me whether it is adjusting my medication or running blood tests. I know that I am in the Lord’s care. I am thankful that He is in charge of my life and I submit to all that He has in store for me.

What are you thankful for today?

(Day 9) Give Thanks To The Lord

photo-1414589491349-2acf6131176ePsalm 105:1 NLT says, “Give thanks to the Lord and proclaim his greatness. Let the whole world know what he has done.”  I could fill pages upon pages of testimonies to what the Lord has done in my life. I am convinced that I am alive today only because of His mercy and grace. I’ve done nothing to deserve it and I will forever give Him thanks.

Today has been another day of fatigue for me but I am working on getting back on track with my goals. It is going to take hard work and consistency for me to be successful. I already see one success that I haven’t really paid attention to and that is the fact that I am not giving up. I am not beating myself up for not following through on my goals which is huge for me. I used to be awful to myself. It really doesn’t help nor is it any kind of motivator. Proverbs 24:16a NLT says, “The godly may trip seven times, but they will get up again.”  I may trip or I may fall but I will get back up and keep walking in this journey. I just give thanks to the Lord for teaching me every step of the way.

What are you giving thanks to the Lord for today?

(Day 6) Thankful for Friends

proverbs27_9ljmToday was a really tough day. I’ve come face to face with the reality that I am overwhelmed and my spinning plates are falling all over the place. I couldn’t even get this blog post done without hitting some key to cause my whole draft of 500+ words to disappear. POOF GONE!

Breathe…

This week has been a mess. I go back to Monday when I got some news that caused me a moment of panic but I already had the answer because the Lord gave it to me.

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:7 ESV

I wish I could say that I have rested in the truth of those words. The reality is I didn’t. What I thought was peace was really denial. My mouth said the right things but my actions spoke louder. I ran back to the same habits I’ve been running to for years and years. Food. I ran to food yet I didn’t even realize it until today because I was in denial. Yes I knew that the sickness I had was mostly brought on by my own doing but while I was down, while I was sick, while I was in a down time mode even if by force, my focus was not on the Lord. My gaze went from being on Jesus to being on myself. Oh I glanced at Jesus now and then but the steady gaze that I’ve been holding for a while was interrupted. If we were sitting at a table across from one another you would have just seen me slump in my chair and smile. Of course the words that I was writing before these words were lost. They were truth but only surface truth. I believe the Lord wanted me to be open and vulnerable. He wanted me to get to the root of the issue rather than just talk about the outward things that had a small part to play in the way my week has gone.

This realization causes me to appreciate my friends that were there for me today even more. I had two Skype calls with a friend who prayed for me. She also rounded up others to pray for me. I started crashing around noon from not having enough sleep and waking up extra early. I took a 10 minute power nap on my lunch break but it didn’t help much. I was tired, empty and the fire inside me that had been burning with such intensity had dwindled to a slight flicker. I had an event that I was supposed to attend this evening that I had to back out of and I felt really guilty about it. Then my wise friend who knows me oh so well told me that I needed to rest, heal and prioritize. Her words were like a text from Jesus as she pointed out some things that I knew but I was in denial about. My response was that she was right and I am going to refocus, reprioritize and rest. So that is exactly what I am going to do. I am so thankful for friends. Friends who are not afraid to speak the truth in love. Friends that pray and pray some more.

Proverbs 27:9 NLT, “The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense.”

Until tomorrow…

(Day 2) Being Thankful

Today started like a typical Monday. I read my Bible, prayed and then had a conversation with my accountability partner. Shortly thereafter I got some news that caused an initial panic in me but quickly turned around as I had already been prepared with my morning Bible reading.

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:7 ESV

stress-391657_1280I was talking to my daughter when I got the news and relayed it to my daughter who said, “What are you going to do?”. My response was quick as I shouted, “Thank You Jesus”, then proceeded to read the above verse to her. I share this with you today because for me this is something to be thankful for as I am not always so calm when it comes to stressful situations. My daughter noticed the difference in me right away. I noticed it right away as well. The Lord has been teaching me so much this year so if this was a test, I think I may have passed it. Although the true test will be in maintaining my peace and trust in the Lord.

Another thing to be thankful for is that I managed to follow the majority of my goals today. I ate 3 servings of vegetables and 3 servings of fruit and drank my 4 liters of water. While I did not do any exercise today, I am perfectly content with that as I will use today as a rest day. I also ate something sweet today so I will be sure not to eat any desserts or sweets again until next week.

Overall today was a great day to be thankful in all things, good things, unexpected things, yes…all things. I am looking forward to seeing what tomorrow will bring. I am trusting my unknown future to my known God and I know He is in charge of it all!

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:7 ESV

(Day 31) Recap, Wrap Up and What’s Next

recapThis has been an amazing month of blogging for me. I am excited to have made it to the finish line. I completed a total of 25 posts in the month of October and I am really proud of myself. I have quite a few takeaways that I want to share but first let me recap the purpose of my “31 Days of Transforming My Temple” blog series. At the beginning of this series I said that “This 31 day challenge will set the course for the rest of my life.” My goal was to begin a journey to transforming my temple which is my body. My desire is to walk with Jesus learning to become balanced in body, mind, soul and spirit. So let’s recap my original goals:

The following were the steps I committed to taking:

  1. Each day I will pray and ask the Holy Spirit to guide me in my food choices. – Need to work on this
  2. I will be transparent and accountable to the sisters that God has appointed to walk with me at this time. – Done!
  3. I will support my decision with walls of grace and mercy. Should I fall into temptation and veer off the course set before me I will grab hold of grace and mercy, repent, receive forgiveness and continue moving forward. No turning back, no quitting. This is a lifetime journey not a diet.- Done and ongoing!
  4. I will move my body. I will begin to exercise at a slow pace even if it’s just 5 minutes a day increasing each day as I build endurance and stamina. – Need to work on this

I also committed to the following for the 31 days of October:

  1. Green Smoothies for breakfast and healthy meals for lunch and dinner. – Quit on day 2 or 3 
  2. No sweets – meaning no cookies, cakes, pies, ice cream, etc. – Nailed it! Yesss!
  3. 3 liters of water per day – Nailed it! Yesss!
  4. Up to 30 minutes of exercise 6 times a week. Starting slowly at 5 minutes and increasing each day until I’m at 30 minutes which will then be the minimum daily goal. – Need to work on this one

Now here are the small victories that I shared on day 19:

  1. It has been over two months since I drank soda and I now drink upwards of 3-4 liters of water a day.
  2. It has been 19 days since I have eaten any type of desserts or sweets. Now 31 days!
  3. I have been transparent with my accountability partner for 19 days. Now 31 days!
  4. I released 4 pounds that I don’t plan on getting back Woo Hoo

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My weight loss for the month was 4.2 lbs. I went from 374.6 to 370.4. I weigh in on Thursdays so I did not weigh myself today so I will settle for the loss of 4.2 lbs as being the final for the month. I don’t want this to be about a number on a scale because that is what contributed to my downfalls in the past. Yes I will watch the number but I will not make any goals now or in the future on how much weight I want to lose in a specific time frame. Many people would disagree with that but I know myself and I would rather focus on bringing the spiritual into the physical as I follow Jesus and walk with Him on this transformation journey.

Takeaways related to the writing challenge with write31days:

  1. I can write every day! Or at least almost every day.
  2. I can be bold and courageous to share transparently the things I am learning in this transformation journey.
  3. I can only be victorious by focusing on Jesus and letting Him lead the way.
  4. I love the blogging community.

So what’s next?

Well the “31 Days of Transforming My Temple” blog series has now come to an end. But the transformation journey continues. I will be writing about this journey as the Lord leads. I can’t say that it will be every day at this point but I know that if I am learning how to live balanced in mind, body, soul and spirit by bridging the gap between the spiritual and the physical, then I know that others will be encouraged as well. I believe the Lord gives us revelation to share with others. It’s a wonderful thing to be able to be on a journey with like-minded people who are moving towards the same goals. I have met some really great people along the way and I look forward to meeting new friends as time passes.

It has been an absolute pleasure to have you along with me on this 31 day journey. Before you leave I just want to bless you with these words from Numbers 6:24-26:

“The Lord bless you and keep you;
The Lord make His face shine upon you,
And be gracious to you;
The Lord lift up His countenance upon you,
And give you peace.”’

(Day 30) Off My Square

Yesterday was a pretty non productive day for me. Wednesday I was on fire, my eating was going well, I got my exercise done, my spirit was ablaze for revival and I was part of a powerful prayer meeting. I had victories to rejoice in with my scale and non scale victories and then something just crashed into my day and it was all downhill from there. This morning as I shared with my accountability partner how my day went, she helped me pinpoint where my downfall started. Yesterday I tried to encourage someone close to me and basically got a stop sign in my face (not literally😊). It hurt me though and I took on this person’s emotional baggage and got weighed down for the rest of the day.

The story of Elijah in the book of 1 Kings came to me and he had a powerful showdown against the prophets of Baal and then Jezebel send word that she was going to kill him. Let’s read what happened, shall we?

“Then Jezebel sent a messenger to Elijah, saying, “So let the gods do to me, and more also, if I do not make your life as the life of one of them by tomorrow about this time.” And when he saw that, he arose and ran for his life, and went to Beersheba, which belongs to Judah, and left his servant there. But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree. And he prayed that he might die, and said, “It is enough! Now, LORD, take my life, for I am no better than my fathers!” I Kings 19:2-4 NKJV

Now I realize that Elijah’s response was a little more severe than mine as he told the Lord to take his life. But here’s what connected with my experience. It says:

“But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree.”

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That pretty much sums up my day yesterday. I had a day’s journey into the wilderness and I sat down and stared into space or stared at my phone quite a bit. There’s no broom tree in my house but if there was I would have been sitting under it. Haha!

How many of us do this? We have a great day of managing our time and working on our goals and then something happens. It can be a stressful phone call, a scathing text message, a devastating event, an argument with your spouse or children, a burnt piece of toast or stepping on a Lego. Something throws you off your “square”. (Which means “out of my usual routine; doing things I wouldn’t normally do.” – Source: urbandictionary.com) That’s basically what happened to me.

So if you follow Elijah’s story you find the Lord sending an angel to care for him and provide food and then after that the Lord gives him revelation by being found in the still small voice. Just go read the 1 Kings chapter 19 and get the whole story. It’s a really good story. Anyway, my still small voice was in many revelations that I had yesterday but I couldn’t receive them until I talked it through today with my accountability partner.

God is in the small details of our lives and constantly teaching us lessons but we have to really be intentional to bend our ears to hear the still small voice. God loves us so much. More than I think we realize. As for all those little things that cause us to be distracted from our goals, we just need to take them to Jesus and keep moving forward. Thank you Lord for revelation during this transformation journey.

Thank you for stopping by today!