(Day 30) Off My Square

Yesterday was a pretty non productive day for me. Wednesday I was on fire, my eating was going well, I got my exercise done, my spirit was ablaze for revival and I was part of a powerful prayer meeting. I had victories to rejoice in with my scale and non scale victories and then something just crashed into my day and it was all downhill from there. This morning as I shared with my accountability partner how my day went, she helped me pinpoint where my downfall started. Yesterday I tried to encourage someone close to me and basically got a stop sign in my face (not literally😊). It hurt me though and I took on this person’s emotional baggage and got weighed down for the rest of the day.

The story of Elijah in the book of 1 Kings came to me and he had a powerful showdown against the prophets of Baal and then Jezebel send word that she was going to kill him. Let’s read what happened, shall we?

“Then Jezebel sent a messenger to Elijah, saying, “So let the gods do to me, and more also, if I do not make your life as the life of one of them by tomorrow about this time.” And when he saw that, he arose and ran for his life, and went to Beersheba, which belongs to Judah, and left his servant there. But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree. And he prayed that he might die, and said, “It is enough! Now, LORD, take my life, for I am no better than my fathers!” I Kings 19:2-4 NKJV

Now I realize that Elijah’s response was a little more severe than mine as he told the Lord to take his life. But here’s what connected with my experience. It says:

“But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree.”

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That pretty much sums up my day yesterday. I had a day’s journey into the wilderness and I sat down and stared into space or stared at my phone quite a bit. There’s no broom tree in my house but if there was I would have been sitting under it. Haha!

How many of us do this? We have a great day of managing our time and working on our goals and then something happens. It can be a stressful phone call, a scathing text message, a devastating event, an argument with your spouse or children, a burnt piece of toast or stepping on a Lego. Something throws you off your “square”. (Which means “out of my usual routine; doing things I wouldn’t normally do.” – Source: urbandictionary.com) That’s basically what happened to me.

So if you follow Elijah’s story you find the Lord sending an angel to care for him and provide food and then after that the Lord gives him revelation by being found in the still small voice. Just go read the 1 Kings chapter 19 and get the whole story. It’s a really good story. Anyway, my still small voice was in many revelations that I had yesterday but I couldn’t receive them until I talked it through today with my accountability partner.

God is in the small details of our lives and constantly teaching us lessons but we have to really be intentional to bend our ears to hear the still small voice. God loves us so much. More than I think we realize. As for all those little things that cause us to be distracted from our goals, we just need to take them to Jesus and keep moving forward. Thank you Lord for revelation during this transformation journey.

Thank you for stopping by today!

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(Day 29) Beginning The Fifth Week of My Journey

IMG_1573Here we are at the beginning of the fifth week of my journey. We are also nearing the end of this blog series and I am please to be able to show a 4.2 pound loss from October 1st. What I see represented by these numbers is that I began a sprint and then plummeted by the beginning of week three but then I really started working on those baby steps. The first two weeks I tried to forge ahead with what I knew worked. Then by the beginning of the third week I really started to let myself be led by the Holy Spirit. It has been a wonderful learning experience for me.

I am learning that truly I am a spiritual being housed in a physical body and there has to be balance between the two. Jesus used natural and physical illustrations to teach spiritual truths. I am learning to have such a beautiful balance in my life that is seasoned with grace because every day is not so balanced. Oh but I feel like I am living out what Paul talked about in 1 Corinthians chapter 2:

“But as it is written:

“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.” But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. For the Spirit searches all things, yes, the deep things of God. For what man knows the things of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him? Even so no one knows the things of God except the Spirit of God. Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might know the things that have been freely given to us by God.” – 1 Corinthians 2:9-12 NKJV

This may be the fifth week of my journey of transforming my temple but I feel like it really is just the beginning. I am so stirred in my heart to see how God is going to continue to not only transform my body but my mind as well. I’m so grateful for you coming along side me in this journey as I walk with Jesus learning to live abundantly and be balanced in mind, body, soul and spirit. ~ 1 Corinthians 6:19 – “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?”

(Day 28) Being Intentional Today

Today I was intentional about starting my day with the Word of God. Today I was intentional about meeting my step goal and actually beat my goal with 6016 steps. Today I was intentional about prayerfully writing out my schedule. Today I was intentional about eating healthy. The theme that kept running through everything that I was doing today was the word TODAY. I realized that this has been the ongoing theme for the past few days and the Lord absolutely brought it to full revelation today! We are only promised today. Do you understand what this means? I thought I did too but I see this in a new light today. There’s that word again!

Let’s take a look at a few passages of scripture and then I will explain what I believe the Lord has been saying to me.

Deuteronomy 30: 15-16 NKJV  “See, I have set before you today life and good, death and evil, in that I command you today to love the Lord your God, to walk in His ways, and to keep His commandments, His statutes, and His judgments, that you may live and multiply; and the Lord your God will bless you in the land which you go to possess.”

James 4:13-14 NKJV  “Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, spend a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit”; whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away.”

Hebrews 3:12-15 NKJV “Beware, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief in departing from the living God; but exhort one another daily, while it is called “Today,” lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulness of sin. For we have become partakers of Christ if we hold the beginning of our confidence steadfast to the end, while it is said:“Today, if you will hear His voice, Do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion.”

Today the Lord sets before us the opportunity to choose life and good or death and evil. Today we need to focus on what we are doing in this moment. While planning for the future is good, we never know if we will see tomorrow so we have to make the best of what we have right in front of us and that is today. We are told to exhort one another daily, while it is called “Today” so we will not have our hearts hardened by sin.

You may be thinking to yourself, “what does this have to do with exercise or losing weight?” Everything. It’s bringing the physical and the spiritual together and finding a balance. My desire has been and always will be to honor God with my body. That means while I weigh 372 pounds and when I weigh 172 pounds, my desire will not change. The journey is a long process but the truth is we only have today. I can’t worry about what’s happening tomorrow because I may never even see it. I have to take care of my body today and keep my eyes open to the world around me. I have to be ready to really see the lost and dying around me. Today I must be intentional to care for myself and others. Today I must be intentional to be found in the place of prayer for those who need to know Jesus.

In addition to working on honoring God with my body, I have been reading about revivals and awakenings. My heart is stirred to see the church wake up from its slumber and stop glancing at Jesus and begin to gaze upon Jesus. We have been hearing so much about judgment coming to our nation but I say we must stand in the gap for our nation. I have one more scripture today to share and I hope that it stirs you as much as it has stirred me.

Ezekiel 22:30  “So I sought for a man among them who would make a wall, and stand in the gap before Me on behalf of the land, that I should not destroy it; but I found no one.”

I want to be found as one who will stand in the gap for my city, my county, my state, my nation and the rest of the world. I want to be one who weeps and mourns over the darkness that is getting darker in our generation. I believe as the darkness continues to grow darker the Light of Jesus Christ is going to shine brighter than ever before.

I don’t know what you believe or don’t believe but I know God is real, I know Jesus is the only way to the Father and I know that the Holy Spirit has been given to us as a gift.

John 14:6 NKJV  “Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.”

Acts 2:38 NKJV  “Then Peter said to them, “Repent, and let every one of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins; and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.”

Today is all you have. Today is a great day to be saved.

John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”

2 Corinthians 6:1-2 NKJV  “We then, as workers together with Him also plead with you not to receive the grace of God in vain. For He says: “In an acceptable time I have heard you, And in the day of salvation I have helped you.” Behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation.”

Today I have been intentional to share with you my heart. Please let me know if you need prayer or want to know more about having a true relationship with Jesus Christ. Thank you so much for stopping by.

(Day 27) Fitbit Goal Met

IMG_1404Well I did it! I got my 5000 steps in today. I took a nap after work again but I was not going to let one more day pass without working on my exercise commitment. I only have today right? So today is the day to meet my goal. How do I feel about this? I feel great! I think this has motivated me to get back into making sure I am doing this every day. I hope it will give me energy like my accountability partner said because I am just so fatigued every day. It’s frustrating!

So now my next goal is to take my schedule to the Lord in the morning. This is how I am going to have to start every day. I need guidance from the Lord. My ideas are not as successful when I just go forward without including the Lord in my plans. In John 15:5 Jesus said, “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” Quite frankly I don’t want to do anything apart from Jesus. He is my everything. My desire is to walk out this journey with Jesus not by myself. I can’t do it alone. I appreciate my accountability partner but we both agree that even with each other we are nothing without Jesus leading the way.

Who is leading your life today?

Thanks for stopping by!

(Day 26) Disappointed But Not For Long

Galatians 3:3 NIV says “Are you so foolish? After beginning by means of the Spirit, are you now trying to finish by means of the flesh?” That’s the scripture that came to mind as I was beating myself up for not following through on my commitment to exercise. My day literally consisted of waking up late, working, sleeping, working and then sleeping again. I got nothing else done at all. My accountability partner suggested that my fatigue could be improved if I move my body! Go figure, that’s what I wanted to do but I allowed my fatigue to get the best of me. I didn’t take my schedule to the Lord in the morning and the rest of my day was lost. That’s where I failed and I am so glad that I learned that lesson quickly.

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Today is the only day that we are promised. We are never promised tomorrow in scripture. We must make the best of today. That is what I intend to do today. I will take my schedule to the Lord and ask Him to help me plan my day. I am pretty confident that my day will look much better because I have done this before. It lasted 3 days. I did not get back to it and yet the Lord had me working on planning and balance for a while this month. Somewhere along the journey I said “I got this Lord” and everything went the wrong direction. Well thank God for grace. I have repented and I am ready to move forward again. This is a lifetime journey and there will always be bumps in the road but the Lord is gracious and steers me back when I get off track. Hallelujah!

(Day 25) Quick Exercise Update

cartoonwomanwalking1-403-x-600Today has been a lazy day. It seems like every weekend I am so tired and this weekend is no exception. After church I usually go home and take a nap, a 5 hour nap. My daughter says that’s not a nap but for me it works. I tried to take a nap today but my daughter in law invited me over for dinner. It was lovely and I enjoyed seeing the family but here I am at 8:30 pm and I am ready to go to bed. I was looking at my Fitbit and I have all of 1772 steps for today. I’m sure that I would have had more but I didn’t wear it to church so I only got my steps in from the time I left my house and went to dinner with the family. I need to get with the program, I have 10 friends on Fitbit and my rank is number 10.

Monday is a great day to begin to work on goals so starting tomorrow I am going to make it a point to get at least 5000 steps for the next 5 of 7 days. To keep me accountable to this, since I’ve not been doing it for the past few weeks, I am going to post my steps here every day for the next 6 days. This will bring me to the end of this 31 day blog series. I cannot believe how fast this month has flown by. I have to consider what the next step step will be for my blog. I want to continue to post about my journey but I am not sure what my plan will be. Right now I have to get my walking done on a daily basis because exercise is so important to this journey. I have not been consistent with this and I feel sluggish so it’s time to make a change and get with the program.

Until tomorrow….

Thank you for stopping by!

(Days 23 & 24) Temptations Galore!

Sorry I didn’t post yesterday but I have been away at a training and there was just no time to get my blog done. Now that I am back home, I just have to share my win over the past couple days. I am really proud of myself. I set up some goals on Day 1 and while I have not followed every single one, I have actually been doing very good with not eating sweets and that is huge for me! Since I am pretty picky about the kinds of sweets I like anyway it really has been easy for me over the past 24 days. So at the training there was coffee cake and candy on the table along with apples and grapes that were set out for breakfast. It was a no-brainer, the grapes were my choice. But then it happened, my first real temptation, a Panera Toffee Nut Cookie! 440 calories of deliciousness! I mean look at this beauty of a cookie:

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My local Panera has not had this cookie available the last few times I have been there so when I saw this cookie on the table when lunch was served, my mouth just watered. I said “sure, my favorite cookie is here and I can’t eat it!” So I grabbed a tuna sandwich along with some salad and went to my seat. Let me tell you, my mind was trying to find a way to convince me to break my 31 days and eat that cookie. “It’s a favorite for me, I haven’t had one in so long, I can just eat it today and then get back on track tomorrow.” My friend suggested that I take it home and throw it in the freezer and have it after my 31 days have passed. That’s exactly what I have done. It’s in the freezer behind a bag of vegetables so I won’t see it when I go into the freezer. I doubt that it will bother me anyway because I made up my mind that I can wait for it.

I’m being consistent with two things in my life right now and that’s huge for me. I drink my water every day and I’m sticking to my commitment to not eat desserts for 31 days. It’s an encouragement and motivation to see that I can actually stick to these things. If I can do these small changes over time and continue to add changes to my life, there’s no telling how much success I will see in this journey. I just praise God for these small victories in my life.

Thank you for stopping by today.