One woman's journey walking with Jesus Christ learning to live abundantly and be balanced in mind, body, soul and spirit. ~ 1 Corinthians 6:19 – Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?…
There was a time when I didn’t have many friends. I remember praying for friends, praying for women that would speak into my life and women that I could hang out with, go to dinner or a movie or just sit and chat for hours. I am so thankful that the Lord answered my prayer above and beyond what I could ever imagine. This has been a week that I have truly been thankful for praying friends. I know they are praying for me, I feel it.
Today has been another day where I just haven’t had any energy so I slept all day. I got up early, did some studying and then laid on my couch to listen to a book and the next thing I knew it was 6 hours later. So much for my day! That’s kind of how my weekends have been lately. Lots of sleeping but this week has been the worst. I think I may have slept more hours than I’ve been awake. Well at least it feels that way.
So a friend invited me to dinner (where we ate breakfast haha) and while we were waiting on the waitress to take our order I was yawning. My friend asked me how I could possibly be yawning when I slept all day. I told her that I could go back to sleep right then and be happy. Then we got into a conversation about my health, my medications, my eating habits, etc. She suggested that maybe I should go see my doctor because maybe this fatigue I’ve been having is due to my medication or has a medical reason. Duh! I had not even considered that! My blood sugar has been lower than it has been in 10 years. I am a diabetic who was quite non-compliant for a long time, I hate to admit that but its the truth. Monday I will be making an appointment with my doctor and see what she says. Sometimes you just need a friend to point out the things that you don’t even think about.
Today was a really tough day. I’ve come face to face with the reality that I am overwhelmed and my spinning plates are falling all over the place. I couldn’t even get this blog post done without hitting some key to cause my whole draft of 500+ words to disappear. POOF GONE!
This week has been a mess. I go back to Monday when I got some news that caused me a moment of panic but I already had the answer because the Lord gave it to me.
“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:7 ESV
I wish I could say that I have rested in the truth of those words. The reality is I didn’t. What I thought was peace was really denial. My mouth said the right things but my actions spoke louder. I ran back to the same habits I’ve been running to for years and years. Food. I ran to food yet I didn’t even realize it until today because I was in denial. Yes I knew that the sickness I had was mostly brought on by my own doing but while I was down, while I was sick, while I was in a down time mode even if by force, my focus was not on the Lord. My gaze went from being on Jesus to being on myself. Oh I glanced at Jesus now and then but the steady gaze that I’ve been holding for a while was interrupted. If we were sitting at a table across from one another you would have just seen me slump in my chair and smile. Of course the words that I was writing before these words were lost. They were truth but only surface truth. I believe the Lord wanted me to be open and vulnerable. He wanted me to get to the root of the issue rather than just talk about the outward things that had a small part to play in the way my week has gone.
This realization causes me to appreciate my friends that were there for me today even more. I had two Skype calls with a friend who prayed for me. She also rounded up others to pray for me. I started crashing around noon from not having enough sleep and waking up extra early. I took a 10 minute power nap on my lunch break but it didn’t help much. I was tired, empty and the fire inside me that had been burning with such intensity had dwindled to a slight flicker. I had an event that I was supposed to attend this evening that I had to back out of and I felt really guilty about it. Then my wise friend who knows me oh so well told me that I needed to rest, heal and prioritize. Her words were like a text from Jesus as she pointed out some things that I knew but I was in denial about. My response was that she was right and I am going to refocus, reprioritize and rest. So that is exactly what I am going to do. I am so thankful for friends. Friends who are not afraid to speak the truth in love. Friends that pray and pray some more.
Proverbs 27:9 NLT, “The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense.”
Tuesday evening I got together with a friend which when I think about it was a great way of celebrating my small victories. We had no set plans just a time and day when we both were available. She initially suggested that we go to a gourmet chocolate place in our town but I told her that I was in the middle of 31 days of no dessert so that wouldn’t work. Her next suggestion was that we go to Fresh Thyme. I had no idea what that was but I agreed. She picked me up and we went to this amazing Farmer’s Market Natural, Organic Grocery Store. I am used to shopping at Wal-Mart so this was a real treat for me.
The sales in the store were great and I just loved all the ways they offered fresh, natural, healthy choices. They have fresh juices, fresh nut butters, bulk grains, oils, honey, etc. I realized that this trip to the store was an excellent way to celebrate those small victories. Spending time with a friend and not eating was just what I needed. I am pretty sure that I will be frequenting this store a lot! What a gift! I am so thankful for a friend that will come along side me to support my journey.