(Day 29) Beginning The Fifth Week of My Journey

IMG_1573Here we are at the beginning of the fifth week of my journey. We are also nearing the end of this blog series and I am please to be able to show a 4.2 pound loss from October 1st. What I see represented by these numbers is that I began a sprint and then plummeted by the beginning of week three but then I really started working on those baby steps. The first two weeks I tried to forge ahead with what I knew worked. Then by the beginning of the third week I really started to let myself be led by the Holy Spirit. It has been a wonderful learning experience for me.

I am learning that truly I am a spiritual being housed in a physical body and there has to be balance between the two. Jesus used natural and physical illustrations to teach spiritual truths. I am learning to have such a beautiful balance in my life that is seasoned with grace because every day is not so balanced. Oh but I feel like I am living out what Paul talked about in 1 Corinthians chapter 2:

“But as it is written:

“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.” But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. For the Spirit searches all things, yes, the deep things of God. For what man knows the things of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him? Even so no one knows the things of God except the Spirit of God. Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might know the things that have been freely given to us by God.” – 1 Corinthians 2:9-12 NKJV

This may be the fifth week of my journey of transforming my temple but I feel like it really is just the beginning. I am so stirred in my heart to see how God is going to continue to not only transform my body but my mind as well. I’m so grateful for you coming along side me in this journey as I walk with Jesus learning to live abundantly and be balanced in mind, body, soul and spirit. ~ 1 Corinthians 6:19 – “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?”

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(Day 27) Fitbit Goal Met

IMG_1404Well I did it! I got my 5000 steps in today. I took a nap after work again but I was not going to let one more day pass without working on my exercise commitment. I only have today right? So today is the day to meet my goal. How do I feel about this? I feel great! I think this has motivated me to get back into making sure I am doing this every day. I hope it will give me energy like my accountability partner said because I am just so fatigued every day. It’s frustrating!

So now my next goal is to take my schedule to the Lord in the morning. This is how I am going to have to start every day. I need guidance from the Lord. My ideas are not as successful when I just go forward without including the Lord in my plans. In John 15:5 Jesus said, “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” Quite frankly I don’t want to do anything apart from Jesus. He is my everything. My desire is to walk out this journey with Jesus not by myself. I can’t do it alone. I appreciate my accountability partner but we both agree that even with each other we are nothing without Jesus leading the way.

Who is leading your life today?

Thanks for stopping by!

(Day 22) Beginning The Fourth Week of My Journey

IMG_1330Here we are at the beginning of the fourth week of my journey and I cannot believe how fast the time is going. There are 10 days left of this blog series and I have seen progress in many ways. Truly the journey to transforming my temple is going to take much more than 31 days but I believe I am off to a great start. With that said, I must confess that my weight this week is up again. This means that the lesson I will take away from this past week is that I must stick to my goals in order to be able to see progress in the scale. But even though I am up 2.2 pounds this week, I am still down 2 pounds from the first day. So all is not lost and I will not allow this to steer me off the path. The idea is to transform my temple which is my body and that includes inside and out and can only be accomplished by the power of the Holy Spirit. My mind is being transformed in the process as I spend time in the Word of God, spend time in prayer and worship, spend time being real and transparent with my accountability partner and own my actions and decisions. I may be drinking water consistently and staying away from desserts but even when you are choosing healthy foods, too much of a good thing is still too much.

My goals for this past week were:

  1. My total daily step count goal is to reach 5000 steps for 6 of the next 7 days.
  2. Plan my meals ahead of time and do my best to stick to the plan
  3. Grace, grace, grace

Goals 1-2: No progress, try again this week

Goal 3: Keep this one going

I knew this time would be different when I started and I am seeing that it truly is different. This time I am not shaken by the results on the scale. I am not beating myself up for not following my goals to the letter. I am enjoying the journey. I am learning every day. I am moving forward. As my accountability partner tells me regularly “onward and upward” and “baby steps = giant results”. I’m still in the baby steps phase and it’s okay. 1 Kings 6:38 tells us how long it took Solomon to build the temple “In the eleventh year, in the month of Bul, which is the eighth month, the house was finished throughout all its parts and according to all its plans. So he was seven years in building it.” It took seven years to build the temple so what makes me think I am going to transform my temple in 31 days. I believe the first step in this transformation is transforming my mind. Romans 12:2 says “And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.” Do you know what Romans 12:1 says? It says “I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service.” So these two go together. I am off to a great start and it is only day 22. Wow! I can’t wait to see what happens in the next 10 days.

Have I told you how grateful I am to have you joining me in this journey? I truly am grateful for you. Thank you for reading today’s post. Have a wonderful day!

(Day 3) Chair Exercise

Exercise is like a bad word for me right now. It takes so much time to build up stamina and endurance but when you stop, it all falls down. The reason I was discouraged yesterday was because I could not do some of the exercises that were listed in a challenge I am participating in. Well my accountability partner took care of that and helped me to realize that I cannot do what I have done in the past without starting fresh. I have to start slow and build up my body to be able to do those squats and burpees and all the rest.

I remembered a chair exercise video that I used to do a few years ago so off to YouTube I went to find it. I had to do the exercises without the resistance band because I have to get a new one but man was that a workout. I am adding it here so if you are beginning your workout journey like I am then you can check it out too. It’s a good one.

I am determined to walk more and I’ve decided that I will begin to take prayer walks. I can’t do any of this without Jesus walking with me. So why not? I love Jesus and I am so thankful for being at a place finally where I know that I know that I know this time is different. This time I will be victorious. The reason why I know this is because it is no longer about the number on the scale. It’s about giving honor and glory to God in and through my body.

Thanks for joining me on this journey and now off I go to get started on that prayer walk!

Until tomorrow…

 

 

More Baby Steps

  
 This blog is the result of a post I made in an accountability group I am involved in on Facebook. I started with something completely different in mind to share and as I wrote I felt compelled to share it here in my blog as well. My good friend runs the group and she appointed me to do the daily posts on water accountability. As I have done this each day the Lord has given me great lessons from His Word about water, thirst, hunger, accountability, faith and perseverance. I’m thankful that I’m connected with a group of Christ followers who desire to honor God with our bodies by pursuing good health. I’m thankful to be at a place in my life where I’m being intentional once again. I’m still in the baby steps phase and that’s ok. Here’s what I shared with the group today.
Sunday August 16, 2015 water accountability.

I am so thankful to be home. I’m ready to be intentional about not just drinking water but what I eat as well. I was thinking about how a baby learns to walk and it will take a while for that baby to get up and walk alone. It will take a process of pulling up with her arms, rocking on her knees and pushing her body up with her feet even as she’s being held by her momma. She will roll and scoot and rock herself until one day she’s crawling and then she’s taking a few steps holding her momma’s hand and a few steps holding on to the couch or a crib. Finally one day with her parents encouragement she will take the first step by herself. What an accomplishment it will be! Then before you know it she will be running and jumping and hopping everywhere. But she will not come to that place before she falls a few times and gets back up.

The key is getting back up, once, twice, three times and then every time. It takes determination, it takes perseverance and it also takes faith. This is the process for life and for this health journey that we are on. I’m still back here pulling myself up, rocking on my knees and pushing my body up with my feet. But I see the Lord’s hand reaching out for me saying “come on, you can do it”. I’ve fallen so many times yet here I stand ready to get back up again and again and again until I’m running the race set before me with the prize waiting of Jesus words saying “well done, thou good and faithful servant”.

Our God is so practical as we see things in the natural become lessons in the spirit. I had something entirely different to say today but I believe I’m not the only one who needed to hear this and if I am that’s ok too.

Father God I declare today that I am on a journey with you. My goal is to be healthy and fit for my Kingdom assignment. Lord God when I begin to slip and fall I pray Holy Spirit that you would help me to get back up as many times as it takes to be able to walk in victory. Teach us all in this group to be humble, transparent and encouraging with one another as we partner with you to bring us to a place of health and fitness. Lord Jesus we love you and we honor you today because it’s all about you. May we glorify you with our bodies today, in Jesus name. Amen.

Progress

You ever wake up and realize that you have been doing things all wrong? It occurred to me in recent weeks that I was just focusing way too much on the wrong things. I’ve focused so much on my failures that I never really saw the successes and so I dismissed the successes and then of course I would splat. Yes splat – fall on my face and not get up. I’ve seen this pattern in my journey to health and wellness for the past 7 years. I really paid attention to it this year as I really took a hard look at myself and why I was not able to be consistent in healthy eating and exercise. Well I think I figured out the problem, I had too much healing that needed to be done on the inside before the outside of me would come into alignment. Deep inside I was afraid to lose the weight because then I would be more noticeable. I mean come on let’s face it, people are more apt to notice your weight loss efforts and say “Hey you are looking great” then when you are gaining weight. Nobody says “Hey you are looking fat today”, well at least not adults that care about you. Children on the other hand can be cruel but I digress.

Early this year I had this knowing in my gut that said this year will be a year when I get my healthy lifestyle back on track. I just knew that it was close and I could feel it. I knew that I had come to a place where significant healing was was evident in my life emotionally and spiritually and I was ready to see that spill over into the physical. So in the middle of great circumstantial stress I tried to get the ball rolling. It didn’t work. I had a lot of false starts but no significant wins. By June I was disgusted with myself and started on a downward spiral of guilt and shame. I went through a short time of depression and just a time of pressing in to God to see where He would take me next. Well He got my attention and come July I started back on the journey to getting my life in order. I started with getting my relationship with Jesus to a higher level, started working on things that I knew the Lord was calling me to do.

I started out by walking to work one day and it took me 12 minutes. I had stopped 4 times and I was so out of breath that I thought I would die and I couldn’t speak when I did get to work. It was miserable. My brother told me to do it again. So I did. I kept doing it until now I can walk to work in 8 min 13 seconds and not stop or be out of breath. That turnaround in me was in July and since then I have been taking it one day at a time. Sometimes one hour at a time. I have accountability and measurable goals every week. Some weeks are better than others but each week I celebrate my victories. Even if it’s just one victory in the whole week. My thinking is different now and that makes a huge difference. It doesn’t matter how fast or how slow I go anymore, it’s just that I keep moving forward and don’t look back.

No matter what!

That my friends is progress!

Baby Steps

There is nothing like watching a baby learn to walk. This past weekend the Lord taught me a lesson about myself from watching a baby walk. When a baby walks and falls down, he may or may not cry…he may crawl a few steps and then get back up or he may just laugh and get back up. Did you notice anything? That baby will GET BACK UP regardless of what happens at the time he falls. No matter how many times he falls, he gets back up. If he doesn’t feel confident right away, he crawls a little but then he gets right back up and walks again. No matter how wobbly, no matter if his daddy is there calling to him “Come on, come to daddy” No matter if he just sees something ahead that catches his eye he will go for it. He is not going to just sit there and cry and never stop trying to walk.

I know what you’re thinking….DUH!

YUP, it’s a DUH! I’m thinking that’s part of my problem, my mind always wants to complicate things. You would think that a person like myself, who has been called the Queen of Efficiency because I can analyze a problem and figure out pretty quickly how to fix it or change a process to complete the work more efficiently, that I would be able to do that in my own personal life. You would think that but NOPE, not me. Not Zenice. Oh no, I have to make a mountain out of a molehill and only see the red X’s of failure and defeat and not the gold stars of progress. I have to complicate things, have my pity parties and just plain give up. Or at least, that’s how I used to operate.

As I have previously written 2011 was a good year for me in terms of losing weight but then 2012 was not so good. For the majority of 2012 I was tormented in my mind about why I couldn’t get back on track with my goals. I prayed and asked the Lord to show me where I went wrong and I asked Him to help me get back on track. I would have days where I would catch a wave of motivation and then a few days later the wave was over. I can’t tell you how many false starts I had in 2012 trying not to gain the weight back. It all failed and the bottom line was that I gained my weight back little by little and now I am almost back to where I was at the beginning of 2011. But the good news is that I am 15 lbs lighter than I was in 2011 when I started our weight-loss challenge at work called “Break Your Boundaries”. Today was our weigh-in day for the 2013 Break Your Boundaries challenge and when I compared my stats it dawned on me how silly I can be. I only need to lose 17.5 lbs to be where I was at the end of the 2011 challenge. I think I am in a good position to get back to that point and then take it further. I am actually pretty confident that I will take it further because not one of my actual goals has a number on it. If I lose 15 or 100 lbs this year I intend to be thankful and grateful for any progress. I just really want to be healthy so I can do the work the Lord is calling me to do.

The Lord really showed me where I went wrong back in 2011 with the whole baby walking analogy. He showed me that where I was looking at the scale and looking at the number 100 (which is how many pounds I wanted to lose) I failed to keep my eyes on Jesus. I kept saying that I was looking to Him but I kept on looking away.  Instead of allowing the Holy Spirit to guide me in my food choices consistently I would get overconfident and stop following His lead and just run on by myself. If I failed (and I failed a lot) I didn’t dust myself off and get back up. No, it took a while and yet He would call to me saying “come on, you can do it” but I didn’t move. I stayed stuck in my misery. Unlike the baby who doesn’t know that it is his goal to walk because it’s just a natural instinctive thing for him to want to get up and move like everyone else, I thought that if I kept my focus on the goal that I would reach the goal. What I have come to realize is that I need to make a goal and then pray about my goal and then keep my eyes on Jesus and He will help me reach the goal.

So I’m taking on a new mindset this year and I have my goals written. I have my action steps planned. I’m praying for my goals daily.  I’m asking the Holy Spirit to help me with my food choices.  I’m keeping my eyes on Jesus at all times.  If I fall, I will maybe cry a little, laugh a little or crawl a little but just like the baby I WILL GET BACK UP!

 

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