(Day 6) Thankful for Friends

proverbs27_9ljmToday was a really tough day. I’ve come face to face with the reality that I am overwhelmed and my spinning plates are falling all over the place. I couldn’t even get this blog post done without hitting some key to cause my whole draft of 500+ words to disappear. POOF GONE!

Breathe…

This week has been a mess. I go back to Monday when I got some news that caused me a moment of panic but I already had the answer because the Lord gave it to me.

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:7 ESV

I wish I could say that I have rested in the truth of those words. The reality is I didn’t. What I thought was peace was really denial. My mouth said the right things but my actions spoke louder. I ran back to the same habits I’ve been running to for years and years. Food. I ran to food yet I didn’t even realize it until today because I was in denial. Yes I knew that the sickness I had was mostly brought on by my own doing but while I was down, while I was sick, while I was in a down time mode even if by force, my focus was not on the Lord. My gaze went from being on Jesus to being on myself. Oh I glanced at Jesus now and then but the steady gaze that I’ve been holding for a while was interrupted. If we were sitting at a table across from one another you would have just seen me slump in my chair and smile. Of course the words that I was writing before these words were lost. They were truth but only surface truth. I believe the Lord wanted me to be open and vulnerable. He wanted me to get to the root of the issue rather than just talk about the outward things that had a small part to play in the way my week has gone.

This realization causes me to appreciate my friends that were there for me today even more. I had two Skype calls with a friend who prayed for me. She also rounded up others to pray for me. I started crashing around noon from not having enough sleep and waking up extra early. I took a 10 minute power nap on my lunch break but it didn’t help much. I was tired, empty and the fire inside me that had been burning with such intensity had dwindled to a slight flicker. I had an event that I was supposed to attend this evening that I had to back out of and I felt really guilty about it. Then my wise friend who knows me oh so well told me that I needed to rest, heal and prioritize. Her words were like a text from Jesus as she pointed out some things that I knew but I was in denial about. My response was that she was right and I am going to refocus, reprioritize and rest. So that is exactly what I am going to do. I am so thankful for friends. Friends who are not afraid to speak the truth in love. Friends that pray and pray some more.

Proverbs 27:9 NLT, “The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense.”

Until tomorrow…

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(Days 3-5) Thankful for A New Day

I missed posting days 3 and 4 because I got really sick. I had a terrible stomach bug that incapacitated me for more than 35 hours. So I basically slept 2 days away because I could do nothing more. Nonetheless I am thankful for that sleep as I feel much better this morning. I happened to open up a productivity app on my phone that I was using a year ago and I read one of my goals which was to write down foods that hurt me. I am thankful that I found that because I am going to implement that again to my daily routine. I cannot afford to have stomach issues take me out for two days again.

As much as I wanted to leave my post at the last paragraph and move on to some good news, I just cannot move on. You see I’m sure that my stomach virus was the direct result of my own doing. I know that I cannot eat certain things and yet my flesh tends to win over when I’m not really thinking through what I’m doing. So this two day experience has exposed the fact that I’m eating mindlessly and it’s hurting me. This picture kind of sums up what I see in myself right about now.

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While I felt that the Lord convicted me that my stomach virus was the direct result of my own doing, my nurse friend advised me that I could not have caused my own fever and hot and cold flashes. Okay, point taken but I still know that I have been engaging in mindless eating which is gluttony.

Proverbs 23:20-21 ESV says, “Be not among drunkards or among gluttonous eaters of meat, for the drunkard and the glutton will come to poverty, and slumber will clothe them with rags.” I don’t drink but to be associated with a drunkard as someone who is engaging in gluttony causes me to sit up and take notice. It’s not something new to me. I have battled with being a food addict for a very long time. I was able to kick every other bad habit but this food thing is literally the hardest. I mean think about it, no one needs to smoke, drink or do drugs but we have to eat for survival. So to me being a food addict is way harder than kicking any other habit.

The good new is that I don’t have to remain in this condition and I have already taken this to the Lord in prayer and repentance. I am thankful for His forgiveness and grace. I don’t have to be bound by the addiction to food because John 8:36 says, “Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.” I will keep pressing into the Lord to help me walk away from this mindless eating. I will make strides in working my goals and lean into the Lord Jesus as my foundation as I build my temple.

Now for the good news of the day. I am down 2.8 lbs since last week and I am truly thankful for this. Maybe it is from being sick two days and maybe not, I don’t know for sure but my goal is not to find those 2.8 lbs again. I will press on in the journey, no turning back!

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Thanks for walking with me on this journey!

(Day 2) Being Thankful

Today started like a typical Monday. I read my Bible, prayed and then had a conversation with my accountability partner. Shortly thereafter I got some news that caused an initial panic in me but quickly turned around as I had already been prepared with my morning Bible reading.

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:7 ESV

stress-391657_1280I was talking to my daughter when I got the news and relayed it to my daughter who said, “What are you going to do?”. My response was quick as I shouted, “Thank You Jesus”, then proceeded to read the above verse to her. I share this with you today because for me this is something to be thankful for as I am not always so calm when it comes to stressful situations. My daughter noticed the difference in me right away. I noticed it right away as well. The Lord has been teaching me so much this year so if this was a test, I think I may have passed it. Although the true test will be in maintaining my peace and trust in the Lord.

Another thing to be thankful for is that I managed to follow the majority of my goals today. I ate 3 servings of vegetables and 3 servings of fruit and drank my 4 liters of water. While I did not do any exercise today, I am perfectly content with that as I will use today as a rest day. I also ate something sweet today so I will be sure not to eat any desserts or sweets again until next week.

Overall today was a great day to be thankful in all things, good things, unexpected things, yes…all things. I am looking forward to seeing what tomorrow will bring. I am trusting my unknown future to my known God and I know He is in charge of it all!

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:7 ESV

(Day 1) November Goals and 30 Days of Being Thankful

I thoroughly enjoyed writing for the past month and it has shown me that I have the ability to keep up my blog on a daily basis. I may not write every single day for the rest of my life but for the next 30 days I am going to incorporate my November goals with 30 days of being thankful. I believe that not only will it help motivate me to continue to achieve my goals but it will also help me have a great attitude.

First I just want to outline my goals for the month of November, some are a continuation and some are new:

  1. Each day I will pray and ask the Holy Spirit to guide me in my food choices.
  2. I will be transparent and accountable to the sisters that God has appointed to walk with me at this time.
  3. I will support my decision with walls of grace and mercy. Should I fall into temptation and veer off the course set before me I will grab hold of grace and mercy, repent, receive forgiveness and continue moving forward. No turning back, no quitting. This is a lifetime journey not a diet.
  4. No Fast Food and limit desserts/sweets to twice a week (choosing healthier options when available)
  5. 4 liters of water per day
  6. 30 minutes of exercise 5 times a week
  7. 3-5 servings of vegetables a day and 2-3 servings of fruit a day

photo-1443527216320-7e744084f5a7What am I thankful for on day 1?

I am thankful for the relationship I have with Jesus Christ. The more I get to know His character and understand the vastness of His sacrifice for me on the cross of Calvary, the more I love Him and want to serve and please Him in every area of my life. My journey to better health is not just something I want to do for me, my desire is be holy as God is holy and I want to glorify God with and through my body.

What are you thankful for today?

(Day 30) Off My Square

Yesterday was a pretty non productive day for me. Wednesday I was on fire, my eating was going well, I got my exercise done, my spirit was ablaze for revival and I was part of a powerful prayer meeting. I had victories to rejoice in with my scale and non scale victories and then something just crashed into my day and it was all downhill from there. This morning as I shared with my accountability partner how my day went, she helped me pinpoint where my downfall started. Yesterday I tried to encourage someone close to me and basically got a stop sign in my face (not literally😊). It hurt me though and I took on this person’s emotional baggage and got weighed down for the rest of the day.

The story of Elijah in the book of 1 Kings came to me and he had a powerful showdown against the prophets of Baal and then Jezebel send word that she was going to kill him. Let’s read what happened, shall we?

“Then Jezebel sent a messenger to Elijah, saying, “So let the gods do to me, and more also, if I do not make your life as the life of one of them by tomorrow about this time.” And when he saw that, he arose and ran for his life, and went to Beersheba, which belongs to Judah, and left his servant there. But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree. And he prayed that he might die, and said, “It is enough! Now, LORD, take my life, for I am no better than my fathers!” I Kings 19:2-4 NKJV

Now I realize that Elijah’s response was a little more severe than mine as he told the Lord to take his life. But here’s what connected with my experience. It says:

“But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree.”

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That pretty much sums up my day yesterday. I had a day’s journey into the wilderness and I sat down and stared into space or stared at my phone quite a bit. There’s no broom tree in my house but if there was I would have been sitting under it. Haha!

How many of us do this? We have a great day of managing our time and working on our goals and then something happens. It can be a stressful phone call, a scathing text message, a devastating event, an argument with your spouse or children, a burnt piece of toast or stepping on a Lego. Something throws you off your “square”. (Which means “out of my usual routine; doing things I wouldn’t normally do.” – Source: urbandictionary.com) That’s basically what happened to me.

So if you follow Elijah’s story you find the Lord sending an angel to care for him and provide food and then after that the Lord gives him revelation by being found in the still small voice. Just go read the 1 Kings chapter 19 and get the whole story. It’s a really good story. Anyway, my still small voice was in many revelations that I had yesterday but I couldn’t receive them until I talked it through today with my accountability partner.

God is in the small details of our lives and constantly teaching us lessons but we have to really be intentional to bend our ears to hear the still small voice. God loves us so much. More than I think we realize. As for all those little things that cause us to be distracted from our goals, we just need to take them to Jesus and keep moving forward. Thank you Lord for revelation during this transformation journey.

Thank you for stopping by today!

(Day 29) Beginning The Fifth Week of My Journey

IMG_1573Here we are at the beginning of the fifth week of my journey. We are also nearing the end of this blog series and I am please to be able to show a 4.2 pound loss from October 1st. What I see represented by these numbers is that I began a sprint and then plummeted by the beginning of week three but then I really started working on those baby steps. The first two weeks I tried to forge ahead with what I knew worked. Then by the beginning of the third week I really started to let myself be led by the Holy Spirit. It has been a wonderful learning experience for me.

I am learning that truly I am a spiritual being housed in a physical body and there has to be balance between the two. Jesus used natural and physical illustrations to teach spiritual truths. I am learning to have such a beautiful balance in my life that is seasoned with grace because every day is not so balanced. Oh but I feel like I am living out what Paul talked about in 1 Corinthians chapter 2:

“But as it is written:

“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.” But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. For the Spirit searches all things, yes, the deep things of God. For what man knows the things of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him? Even so no one knows the things of God except the Spirit of God. Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might know the things that have been freely given to us by God.” – 1 Corinthians 2:9-12 NKJV

This may be the fifth week of my journey of transforming my temple but I feel like it really is just the beginning. I am so stirred in my heart to see how God is going to continue to not only transform my body but my mind as well. I’m so grateful for you coming along side me in this journey as I walk with Jesus learning to live abundantly and be balanced in mind, body, soul and spirit. ~ 1 Corinthians 6:19 – “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?”

(Day 27) Fitbit Goal Met

IMG_1404Well I did it! I got my 5000 steps in today. I took a nap after work again but I was not going to let one more day pass without working on my exercise commitment. I only have today right? So today is the day to meet my goal. How do I feel about this? I feel great! I think this has motivated me to get back into making sure I am doing this every day. I hope it will give me energy like my accountability partner said because I am just so fatigued every day. It’s frustrating!

So now my next goal is to take my schedule to the Lord in the morning. This is how I am going to have to start every day. I need guidance from the Lord. My ideas are not as successful when I just go forward without including the Lord in my plans. In John 15:5 Jesus said, “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” Quite frankly I don’t want to do anything apart from Jesus. He is my everything. My desire is to walk out this journey with Jesus not by myself. I can’t do it alone. I appreciate my accountability partner but we both agree that even with each other we are nothing without Jesus leading the way.

Who is leading your life today?

Thanks for stopping by!