(Day 3) Chair Exercise

Exercise is like a bad word for me right now. It takes so much time to build up stamina and endurance but when you stop, it all falls down. The reason I was discouraged yesterday was because I could not do some of the exercises that were listed in a challenge I am participating in. Well my accountability partner took care of that and helped me to realize that I cannot do what I have done in the past without starting fresh. I have to start slow and build up my body to be able to do those squats and burpees and all the rest.

I remembered a chair exercise video that I used to do a few years ago so off to YouTube I went to find it. I had to do the exercises without the resistance band because I have to get a new one but man was that a workout. I am adding it here so if you are beginning your workout journey like I am then you can check it out too. It’s a good one.

I am determined to walk more and I’ve decided that I will begin to take prayer walks. I can’t do any of this without Jesus walking with me. So why not? I love Jesus and I am so thankful for being at a place finally where I know that I know that I know this time is different. This time I will be victorious. The reason why I know this is because it is no longer about the number on the scale. It’s about giving honor and glory to God in and through my body.

Thanks for joining me on this journey and now off I go to get started on that prayer walk!

Until tomorrow…

 

 

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More Baby Steps

  
 This blog is the result of a post I made in an accountability group I am involved in on Facebook. I started with something completely different in mind to share and as I wrote I felt compelled to share it here in my blog as well. My good friend runs the group and she appointed me to do the daily posts on water accountability. As I have done this each day the Lord has given me great lessons from His Word about water, thirst, hunger, accountability, faith and perseverance. I’m thankful that I’m connected with a group of Christ followers who desire to honor God with our bodies by pursuing good health. I’m thankful to be at a place in my life where I’m being intentional once again. I’m still in the baby steps phase and that’s ok. Here’s what I shared with the group today.
Sunday August 16, 2015 water accountability.

I am so thankful to be home. I’m ready to be intentional about not just drinking water but what I eat as well. I was thinking about how a baby learns to walk and it will take a while for that baby to get up and walk alone. It will take a process of pulling up with her arms, rocking on her knees and pushing her body up with her feet even as she’s being held by her momma. She will roll and scoot and rock herself until one day she’s crawling and then she’s taking a few steps holding her momma’s hand and a few steps holding on to the couch or a crib. Finally one day with her parents encouragement she will take the first step by herself. What an accomplishment it will be! Then before you know it she will be running and jumping and hopping everywhere. But she will not come to that place before she falls a few times and gets back up.

The key is getting back up, once, twice, three times and then every time. It takes determination, it takes perseverance and it also takes faith. This is the process for life and for this health journey that we are on. I’m still back here pulling myself up, rocking on my knees and pushing my body up with my feet. But I see the Lord’s hand reaching out for me saying “come on, you can do it”. I’ve fallen so many times yet here I stand ready to get back up again and again and again until I’m running the race set before me with the prize waiting of Jesus words saying “well done, thou good and faithful servant”.

Our God is so practical as we see things in the natural become lessons in the spirit. I had something entirely different to say today but I believe I’m not the only one who needed to hear this and if I am that’s ok too.

Father God I declare today that I am on a journey with you. My goal is to be healthy and fit for my Kingdom assignment. Lord God when I begin to slip and fall I pray Holy Spirit that you would help me to get back up as many times as it takes to be able to walk in victory. Teach us all in this group to be humble, transparent and encouraging with one another as we partner with you to bring us to a place of health and fitness. Lord Jesus we love you and we honor you today because it’s all about you. May we glorify you with our bodies today, in Jesus name. Amen.

Week 2 – Baby Steps

Today is week 2 since I started working on taking care of myself again. In the first week, all I did was replace soda with water. I am now soda-free for 8 days! My goal for this week is to double the amount of daily water intake. Im taking this journey in baby steps. I’m starting slow, making one change at a time.

I used to think I understood the concept of taking baby steps but to be honest I didn’t really “get it“. I think my idea of baby steps meant to take a few baby steps the first week then forge ahead running like a track star. Unfortunately the end result usually meant disaster, even when I had some great progress for a short stint. No that’s not the concept of baby steps.

It takes a while for babies to get up and walk. It’s not an overnight process or a one week, one month process. It actually starts with scooting, then crawling, then walking and falling, and getting back up…repeat…walking, falling and getting back up. I never liked falling. I still don’t. I never saw falling as part of the process. Falling meant failure to me and I would sit there and be paralyzed causing me to just give up. I’ve come to realize that success does not happen to those who never fail but success comes to those who fail but keep getting back up and never quitting. “Baby steps = GIANT results” – a friend of mine has been saying this to me lately. I think it has finally sunk in. I’m sure that God has put this woman in my life for such a time as this, a time for me to get back to being serious about taking care of myself.

When I started this journey 4 years ago I made great progress but had many failures. I couldn’t get past my failures and I couldn’t embrace my progress because I set the bar so high that I couldn’t reach it. In doing that I ended up sabotaging myself and gained back most of the weight I had lost. It was a terrible cycle for me. I have finally learned that I cannot and will not get to my goal of losing all the weight I want to lose in an unrealistic amount of time. I have to give myself some grace to fail and grace to get back up. I have to celebrate the small victories because as time goes on and I continue to keep walking those victories will help move me forward.

Obviously I cannot do this alone, I need the power of the Holy Spirit to help me as I develop the fruit of self control. It is time, I know I’m ready. I see God’s hand everywhere shifting things and bringing people into my life who are on the same journey. It’s essential that I pay attention and not let this appointed time pass me by. There is real work for me to do for the Kingdom of God and I need to be prepared spiritually and physically to be able to fulfill the tasks.

I am excited to start this journey yet not so excited that I forget the journey starts one step at a time. No sprinting, no racing, no striving, no quitting…just keeping my focus on Jesus, the author and finisher of my faith. He will keep me walking slow and steady as I yield and surrender to His plans for me. I can’t wait to see the results, even it it takes a long time. I’m in it for the long haul, I’ve made up my mind and my decision is firm. Thank you for joining me in this journey.

God Bless you all.

  

Decision Day 8/5/2015

And so I go back to the beginning where Losing4Christ began. Today is decision day for me and I’m going for it once again but this time will be different, this time I will keep my commitment to God and to myself.

My commitment is this…I will take care of my body as it is the temple of the Holy Spirit. I cannot do this in my own strength but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I will allow myself to fall and make sure to get up and ask the Lord to dust me off and set me back on my path. I will give myself grace. I will not forget who I am and who I belong to – JESUS! I will keep my focus on Jesus. I will prepare myself for the work He is calling me to do by caring for my body – this means drinking more water, eating clean and exercising at least 5 times a week.

I cannot change my past but I can learn from it and I know that the time is now to move forward. It must be a priority in my life and today August 5, 2015 I am making this commitment. Amen!

 

 

Progress

You ever wake up and realize that you have been doing things all wrong? It occurred to me in recent weeks that I was just focusing way too much on the wrong things. I’ve focused so much on my failures that I never really saw the successes and so I dismissed the successes and then of course I would splat. Yes splat – fall on my face and not get up. I’ve seen this pattern in my journey to health and wellness for the past 7 years. I really paid attention to it this year as I really took a hard look at myself and why I was not able to be consistent in healthy eating and exercise. Well I think I figured out the problem, I had too much healing that needed to be done on the inside before the outside of me would come into alignment. Deep inside I was afraid to lose the weight because then I would be more noticeable. I mean come on let’s face it, people are more apt to notice your weight loss efforts and say “Hey you are looking great” then when you are gaining weight. Nobody says “Hey you are looking fat today”, well at least not adults that care about you. Children on the other hand can be cruel but I digress.

Early this year I had this knowing in my gut that said this year will be a year when I get my healthy lifestyle back on track. I just knew that it was close and I could feel it. I knew that I had come to a place where significant healing was was evident in my life emotionally and spiritually and I was ready to see that spill over into the physical. So in the middle of great circumstantial stress I tried to get the ball rolling. It didn’t work. I had a lot of false starts but no significant wins. By June I was disgusted with myself and started on a downward spiral of guilt and shame. I went through a short time of depression and just a time of pressing in to God to see where He would take me next. Well He got my attention and come July I started back on the journey to getting my life in order. I started with getting my relationship with Jesus to a higher level, started working on things that I knew the Lord was calling me to do.

I started out by walking to work one day and it took me 12 minutes. I had stopped 4 times and I was so out of breath that I thought I would die and I couldn’t speak when I did get to work. It was miserable. My brother told me to do it again. So I did. I kept doing it until now I can walk to work in 8 min 13 seconds and not stop or be out of breath. That turnaround in me was in July and since then I have been taking it one day at a time. Sometimes one hour at a time. I have accountability and measurable goals every week. Some weeks are better than others but each week I celebrate my victories. Even if it’s just one victory in the whole week. My thinking is different now and that makes a huge difference. It doesn’t matter how fast or how slow I go anymore, it’s just that I keep moving forward and don’t look back.

No matter what!

That my friends is progress!

Death To Self

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This is going to hurt. I am going to be real transparent here but I know that it must be done. I need to die to self. I need to come to the place of truly dying to my flesh. My flesh has died before but it just won’t stay dead! September 5, 2011 I died to self and turned my eating habits over to the Lord to lead and guide me. The reality however is I didn’t stay dead for very long. The truth is there is just no way to overcome the flesh on our own.

 Let’s read a few verses from the Bible:

Galatians 5:24 ~ Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.

Romans 6:11 ~ Even so consider yourselves to be dead to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus.

These were the verses I shared back in September 2011. Now let’s take a look at another verse:

Galatians 2:20

I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.

Did you see what I saw? “It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me”. Hmm, yes that changes everything. I keep trying to make my flesh die but I think what really needs to happen is that I need to surrender. I need to remember that Christ lives in me. And since He lives in me, I need to do what the rest of this verse says “the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.

Now let’s look at another few verses:

Colossians 3:1-4

If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth.  For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ who is our life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory.

 

Now let’s read just verses 3-4 in the Message Bible:

Your old life is dead. Your new life, which is your real life—even though invisible to spectators—is with Christ in God. He is your life. When Christ (your real life, remember) shows up again on this earth, you’ll show up, too—the real you, the glorious you.

 

Wow.

 

I wrote the following in 2006, if I’m not mistaken it was after my Pastor spoke on dying to self. I am not even sure if I am the one who wrote it or if it was from my notes from the sermon. I am reminded today though that this is what needs to happen in my life if I am to be successful at getting healthy and losing weight. Quite honestly, this is what needs to happen for all of life. I apply it today to this journey of moving toward better health but death to self is really about living daily for Christ.

When you are dead to self, you no longer are drawn to the old sinful habits of your past. You will no longer respond to people who scorn you or speak evil of you, you just pray for them and love them.

When you are dead to self, nothing affects your walk with the Lord. Nothing can move you from your place in Christ Jesus.

When you are dead to self, you no longer are self-absorbed with your problems and situations instead you are ready to help others through their trials.

When you are dead to self, your focus is on Jesus and His sacrifice for you. You have a yearning to bring others to Him so they too can receive forgiveness.

When you are dead to self, you are drawn more to the things of God then to the things of the world. You would rather read your Bible than watch TV all day. You would rather minister to someone in need than sit and sulk about your own problems.

When you are dead to self, no matter how bad your day is going you still smile at your neighbors and you praise the Lord for each and every moment of your bad day.

When you are dead to self, your focus is on the Lord and how you can be used by Him to further His kingdom.

Dying to self is a daily process.

To be continued…

Genuine sanctification … is nothing less than a daily dying to self and daily conformity to the will of God. ~ Ellen G. White

Baby Steps

There is nothing like watching a baby learn to walk. This past weekend the Lord taught me a lesson about myself from watching a baby walk. When a baby walks and falls down, he may or may not cry…he may crawl a few steps and then get back up or he may just laugh and get back up. Did you notice anything? That baby will GET BACK UP regardless of what happens at the time he falls. No matter how many times he falls, he gets back up. If he doesn’t feel confident right away, he crawls a little but then he gets right back up and walks again. No matter how wobbly, no matter if his daddy is there calling to him “Come on, come to daddy” No matter if he just sees something ahead that catches his eye he will go for it. He is not going to just sit there and cry and never stop trying to walk.

I know what you’re thinking….DUH!

YUP, it’s a DUH! I’m thinking that’s part of my problem, my mind always wants to complicate things. You would think that a person like myself, who has been called the Queen of Efficiency because I can analyze a problem and figure out pretty quickly how to fix it or change a process to complete the work more efficiently, that I would be able to do that in my own personal life. You would think that but NOPE, not me. Not Zenice. Oh no, I have to make a mountain out of a molehill and only see the red X’s of failure and defeat and not the gold stars of progress. I have to complicate things, have my pity parties and just plain give up. Or at least, that’s how I used to operate.

As I have previously written 2011 was a good year for me in terms of losing weight but then 2012 was not so good. For the majority of 2012 I was tormented in my mind about why I couldn’t get back on track with my goals. I prayed and asked the Lord to show me where I went wrong and I asked Him to help me get back on track. I would have days where I would catch a wave of motivation and then a few days later the wave was over. I can’t tell you how many false starts I had in 2012 trying not to gain the weight back. It all failed and the bottom line was that I gained my weight back little by little and now I am almost back to where I was at the beginning of 2011. But the good news is that I am 15 lbs lighter than I was in 2011 when I started our weight-loss challenge at work called “Break Your Boundaries”. Today was our weigh-in day for the 2013 Break Your Boundaries challenge and when I compared my stats it dawned on me how silly I can be. I only need to lose 17.5 lbs to be where I was at the end of the 2011 challenge. I think I am in a good position to get back to that point and then take it further. I am actually pretty confident that I will take it further because not one of my actual goals has a number on it. If I lose 15 or 100 lbs this year I intend to be thankful and grateful for any progress. I just really want to be healthy so I can do the work the Lord is calling me to do.

The Lord really showed me where I went wrong back in 2011 with the whole baby walking analogy. He showed me that where I was looking at the scale and looking at the number 100 (which is how many pounds I wanted to lose) I failed to keep my eyes on Jesus. I kept saying that I was looking to Him but I kept on looking away.  Instead of allowing the Holy Spirit to guide me in my food choices consistently I would get overconfident and stop following His lead and just run on by myself. If I failed (and I failed a lot) I didn’t dust myself off and get back up. No, it took a while and yet He would call to me saying “come on, you can do it” but I didn’t move. I stayed stuck in my misery. Unlike the baby who doesn’t know that it is his goal to walk because it’s just a natural instinctive thing for him to want to get up and move like everyone else, I thought that if I kept my focus on the goal that I would reach the goal. What I have come to realize is that I need to make a goal and then pray about my goal and then keep my eyes on Jesus and He will help me reach the goal.

So I’m taking on a new mindset this year and I have my goals written. I have my action steps planned. I’m praying for my goals daily.  I’m asking the Holy Spirit to help me with my food choices.  I’m keeping my eyes on Jesus at all times.  If I fall, I will maybe cry a little, laugh a little or crawl a little but just like the baby I WILL GET BACK UP!

 

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