(Day 6) Thankful for Friends

proverbs27_9ljmToday was a really tough day. I’ve come face to face with the reality that I am overwhelmed and my spinning plates are falling all over the place. I couldn’t even get this blog post done without hitting some key to cause my whole draft of 500+ words to disappear. POOF GONE!

Breathe…

This week has been a mess. I go back to Monday when I got some news that caused me a moment of panic but I already had the answer because the Lord gave it to me.

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:7 ESV

I wish I could say that I have rested in the truth of those words. The reality is I didn’t. What I thought was peace was really denial. My mouth said the right things but my actions spoke louder. I ran back to the same habits I’ve been running to for years and years. Food. I ran to food yet I didn’t even realize it until today because I was in denial. Yes I knew that the sickness I had was mostly brought on by my own doing but while I was down, while I was sick, while I was in a down time mode even if by force, my focus was not on the Lord. My gaze went from being on Jesus to being on myself. Oh I glanced at Jesus now and then but the steady gaze that I’ve been holding for a while was interrupted. If we were sitting at a table across from one another you would have just seen me slump in my chair and smile. Of course the words that I was writing before these words were lost. They were truth but only surface truth. I believe the Lord wanted me to be open and vulnerable. He wanted me to get to the root of the issue rather than just talk about the outward things that had a small part to play in the way my week has gone.

This realization causes me to appreciate my friends that were there for me today even more. I had two Skype calls with a friend who prayed for me. She also rounded up others to pray for me. I started crashing around noon from not having enough sleep and waking up extra early. I took a 10 minute power nap on my lunch break but it didn’t help much. I was tired, empty and the fire inside me that had been burning with such intensity had dwindled to a slight flicker. I had an event that I was supposed to attend this evening that I had to back out of and I felt really guilty about it. Then my wise friend who knows me oh so well told me that I needed to rest, heal and prioritize. Her words were like a text from Jesus as she pointed out some things that I knew but I was in denial about. My response was that she was right and I am going to refocus, reprioritize and rest. So that is exactly what I am going to do. I am so thankful for friends. Friends who are not afraid to speak the truth in love. Friends that pray and pray some more.

Proverbs 27:9 NLT, “The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense.”

Until tomorrow…

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(Day 30) Off My Square

Yesterday was a pretty non productive day for me. Wednesday I was on fire, my eating was going well, I got my exercise done, my spirit was ablaze for revival and I was part of a powerful prayer meeting. I had victories to rejoice in with my scale and non scale victories and then something just crashed into my day and it was all downhill from there. This morning as I shared with my accountability partner how my day went, she helped me pinpoint where my downfall started. Yesterday I tried to encourage someone close to me and basically got a stop sign in my face (not literally😊). It hurt me though and I took on this person’s emotional baggage and got weighed down for the rest of the day.

The story of Elijah in the book of 1 Kings came to me and he had a powerful showdown against the prophets of Baal and then Jezebel send word that she was going to kill him. Let’s read what happened, shall we?

“Then Jezebel sent a messenger to Elijah, saying, “So let the gods do to me, and more also, if I do not make your life as the life of one of them by tomorrow about this time.” And when he saw that, he arose and ran for his life, and went to Beersheba, which belongs to Judah, and left his servant there. But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree. And he prayed that he might die, and said, “It is enough! Now, LORD, take my life, for I am no better than my fathers!” I Kings 19:2-4 NKJV

Now I realize that Elijah’s response was a little more severe than mine as he told the Lord to take his life. But here’s what connected with my experience. It says:

“But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree.”

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That pretty much sums up my day yesterday. I had a day’s journey into the wilderness and I sat down and stared into space or stared at my phone quite a bit. There’s no broom tree in my house but if there was I would have been sitting under it. Haha!

How many of us do this? We have a great day of managing our time and working on our goals and then something happens. It can be a stressful phone call, a scathing text message, a devastating event, an argument with your spouse or children, a burnt piece of toast or stepping on a Lego. Something throws you off your “square”. (Which means “out of my usual routine; doing things I wouldn’t normally do.” – Source: urbandictionary.com) That’s basically what happened to me.

So if you follow Elijah’s story you find the Lord sending an angel to care for him and provide food and then after that the Lord gives him revelation by being found in the still small voice. Just go read the 1 Kings chapter 19 and get the whole story. It’s a really good story. Anyway, my still small voice was in many revelations that I had yesterday but I couldn’t receive them until I talked it through today with my accountability partner.

God is in the small details of our lives and constantly teaching us lessons but we have to really be intentional to bend our ears to hear the still small voice. God loves us so much. More than I think we realize. As for all those little things that cause us to be distracted from our goals, we just need to take them to Jesus and keep moving forward. Thank you Lord for revelation during this transformation journey.

Thank you for stopping by today!