(Day 25) Quick Exercise Update

cartoonwomanwalking1-403-x-600Today has been a lazy day. It seems like every weekend I am so tired and this weekend is no exception. After church I usually go home and take a nap, a 5 hour nap. My daughter says that’s not a nap but for me it works. I tried to take a nap today but my daughter in law invited me over for dinner. It was lovely and I enjoyed seeing the family but here I am at 8:30 pm and I am ready to go to bed. I was looking at my Fitbit and I have all of 1772 steps for today. I’m sure that I would have had more but I didn’t wear it to church so I only got my steps in from the time I left my house and went to dinner with the family. I need to get with the program, I have 10 friends on Fitbit and my rank is number 10.

Monday is a great day to begin to work on goals so starting tomorrow I am going to make it a point to get at least 5000 steps for the next 5 of 7 days. To keep me accountable to this, since I’ve not been doing it for the past few weeks, I am going to post my steps here every day for the next 6 days. This will bring me to the end of this 31 day blog series. I cannot believe how fast this month has flown by. I have to consider what the next step step will be for my blog. I want to continue to post about my journey but I am not sure what my plan will be. Right now I have to get my walking done on a daily basis because exercise is so important to this journey. I have not been consistent with this and I feel sluggish so it’s time to make a change and get with the program.

Until tomorrow….

Thank you for stopping by!

(Day 4) Exercise and Excuses

exercise-clip-art-pi5rqzeiBExercise…..Over at Dictionary.com the first entry for the definition of exercise is “bodily or mental exertion, especially for the sake of training or improvement of health”.  Well in times past I would have opted for the mental exertion alone and prayed that somehow my body would benefit from it.  Nice try, right?

Exercise….boy I never thought I would say this but I love exercise. I didn’t love it a few years ago when I could barely walk and I certainly didn’t think that moving my body when it was filled with pain could ever be a benefit for me. I had many reasons and excuses to not exercise….for instance how could I exercise when I could barely stand for 5 minutes at a time? Or how could I find time to exercise when I worked 2 jobs? Or how can I exercise when I have no motivation? The list went on and on but the reality of it was this simple truth….Exercise was not very important to me.

When something is important to us we will find the time to do it. Or if something is critical in our lives then we will find time to do whatever it is that we need to do. For example, if you have a tooth ache that is not getting better with home remedies, you will find the time to get to a dentist.  If you have pain in your body that won’t go away or any other ailment for that matter you will find time to go see a doctor. If you walk in your kitchen and there is no food in the house, you will find time to go to the grocery store.  I can come up with a hundred scenarios here but I think you get my point. When something becomes important to us we will make time for it.

I am on day 4 of this journey to transforming my temple and today I had the opportunity to make some excuses. Today I got up and had an extended time of prayer and worship before church. Then I went to church and afterward went to lunch with a friend. When I got home I had planned to do a whole bunch of things. I was going to do some cleaning, exercise, make my smoothie for my dinner and do some writing. I had great intentions. However, I didn’t do any of that because I came home and went to sleep. I’m not talking about a Sunday afternoon nap either. I am talking about a full night’s sleep only it was during the day.

Sleep is necessary for our lives. I have been running all week. I have been lacking in the area of sleep and my body just took over and I slept for 7 hours. I got up at 9:30 tonight and started thinking about all the things I needed to do. Immediately I started making excuses in my mind. “Oh well I slept all day so I will just start over tomorrow.”  “Oh I can just have 2 smoothies tomorrow instead of making one tonight.” “I can just make today my day of rest and not exercise”

I then said to myself “NO”! I got up and went out of the house and took almost a 2 mile walk. It was slow but it was intentional. I was proud of myself. Yesterday when I was exercising I felt the invigoration in my body that I have not felt for a long time. It’s that feeling that causes me to want to exercise more. I committed to 6 days of exercise and I was only on day 3 so why would I need to take a break? I’m working on building up my stamina. I plan to make it those 6 days straight and then take a break. I love exercise. Well to be honest I don’t love the exercise itself but I love the benefit of it. I don’t have to make excuses, I need to kick those excuses to the curb every time they creep up and they will over and over again. I have to keep my commitment because it is not just to my benefit to care for my body as the temple of the Holy Spirit but it is to God’s glory.

Thank you for joining me on this journey and now I am off to get my squats,knee lifts and wall push ups done since I have finished my smoothie and my water. Tomorrow morning I am taking my calendar to my prayer closet and asking the Lord to help me get my schedule better organized so I don’t have to spend a day sleeping again because of losing sleep over the week. Until tomorrow, God bless!

(Day 3) Chair Exercise

Exercise is like a bad word for me right now. It takes so much time to build up stamina and endurance but when you stop, it all falls down. The reason I was discouraged yesterday was because I could not do some of the exercises that were listed in a challenge I am participating in. Well my accountability partner took care of that and helped me to realize that I cannot do what I have done in the past without starting fresh. I have to start slow and build up my body to be able to do those squats and burpees and all the rest.

I remembered a chair exercise video that I used to do a few years ago so off to YouTube I went to find it. I had to do the exercises without the resistance band because I have to get a new one but man was that a workout. I am adding it here so if you are beginning your workout journey like I am then you can check it out too. It’s a good one.

I am determined to walk more and I’ve decided that I will begin to take prayer walks. I can’t do any of this without Jesus walking with me. So why not? I love Jesus and I am so thankful for being at a place finally where I know that I know that I know this time is different. This time I will be victorious. The reason why I know this is because it is no longer about the number on the scale. It’s about giving honor and glory to God in and through my body.

Thanks for joining me on this journey and now off I go to get started on that prayer walk!

Until tomorrow…



Decision Day 8/5/2015

And so I go back to the beginning where Losing4Christ began. Today is decision day for me and I’m going for it once again but this time will be different, this time I will keep my commitment to God and to myself.

My commitment is this…I will take care of my body as it is the temple of the Holy Spirit. I cannot do this in my own strength but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I will allow myself to fall and make sure to get up and ask the Lord to dust me off and set me back on my path. I will give myself grace. I will not forget who I am and who I belong to – JESUS! I will keep my focus on Jesus. I will prepare myself for the work He is calling me to do by caring for my body – this means drinking more water, eating clean and exercising at least 5 times a week.

I cannot change my past but I can learn from it and I know that the time is now to move forward. It must be a priority in my life and today August 5, 2015 I am making this commitment. Amen!



Baby Steps

There is nothing like watching a baby learn to walk. This past weekend the Lord taught me a lesson about myself from watching a baby walk. When a baby walks and falls down, he may or may not cry…he may crawl a few steps and then get back up or he may just laugh and get back up. Did you notice anything? That baby will GET BACK UP regardless of what happens at the time he falls. No matter how many times he falls, he gets back up. If he doesn’t feel confident right away, he crawls a little but then he gets right back up and walks again. No matter how wobbly, no matter if his daddy is there calling to him “Come on, come to daddy” No matter if he just sees something ahead that catches his eye he will go for it. He is not going to just sit there and cry and never stop trying to walk.

I know what you’re thinking….DUH!

YUP, it’s a DUH! I’m thinking that’s part of my problem, my mind always wants to complicate things. You would think that a person like myself, who has been called the Queen of Efficiency because I can analyze a problem and figure out pretty quickly how to fix it or change a process to complete the work more efficiently, that I would be able to do that in my own personal life. You would think that but NOPE, not me. Not Zenice. Oh no, I have to make a mountain out of a molehill and only see the red X’s of failure and defeat and not the gold stars of progress. I have to complicate things, have my pity parties and just plain give up. Or at least, that’s how I used to operate.

As I have previously written 2011 was a good year for me in terms of losing weight but then 2012 was not so good. For the majority of 2012 I was tormented in my mind about why I couldn’t get back on track with my goals. I prayed and asked the Lord to show me where I went wrong and I asked Him to help me get back on track. I would have days where I would catch a wave of motivation and then a few days later the wave was over. I can’t tell you how many false starts I had in 2012 trying not to gain the weight back. It all failed and the bottom line was that I gained my weight back little by little and now I am almost back to where I was at the beginning of 2011. But the good news is that I am 15 lbs lighter than I was in 2011 when I started our weight-loss challenge at work called “Break Your Boundaries”. Today was our weigh-in day for the 2013 Break Your Boundaries challenge and when I compared my stats it dawned on me how silly I can be. I only need to lose 17.5 lbs to be where I was at the end of the 2011 challenge. I think I am in a good position to get back to that point and then take it further. I am actually pretty confident that I will take it further because not one of my actual goals has a number on it. If I lose 15 or 100 lbs this year I intend to be thankful and grateful for any progress. I just really want to be healthy so I can do the work the Lord is calling me to do.

The Lord really showed me where I went wrong back in 2011 with the whole baby walking analogy. He showed me that where I was looking at the scale and looking at the number 100 (which is how many pounds I wanted to lose) I failed to keep my eyes on Jesus. I kept saying that I was looking to Him but I kept on looking away.  Instead of allowing the Holy Spirit to guide me in my food choices consistently I would get overconfident and stop following His lead and just run on by myself. If I failed (and I failed a lot) I didn’t dust myself off and get back up. No, it took a while and yet He would call to me saying “come on, you can do it” but I didn’t move. I stayed stuck in my misery. Unlike the baby who doesn’t know that it is his goal to walk because it’s just a natural instinctive thing for him to want to get up and move like everyone else, I thought that if I kept my focus on the goal that I would reach the goal. What I have come to realize is that I need to make a goal and then pray about my goal and then keep my eyes on Jesus and He will help me reach the goal.

So I’m taking on a new mindset this year and I have my goals written. I have my action steps planned. I’m praying for my goals daily.  I’m asking the Holy Spirit to help me with my food choices.  I’m keeping my eyes on Jesus at all times.  If I fall, I will maybe cry a little, laugh a little or crawl a little but just like the baby I WILL GET BACK UP!



Time to Revisit the Vision

This is a tough blog to write. I’ve been procrastinating over it for almost a week now. I think I have come to the end of myself once again (and hopefully for all time). My journey began in 2008 and for 3 years I was actively working on losing weight. It was so necessary because of health issues and primarily because I wanted to please God. In February 2011 I started this blog because I truly felt the Lord impressed the name Losing4Christ on me and I had 7 things that I wanted to lose for Christ:

  1. Weight
  2. Sin
  3. Bondage
  4. Damaged Emotions
  5. Lack of discipline
  6. Fear
  7. Control

Well, to be very honest I was stuck on #1 and worked very hard at losing weight in 2011 and I lost 84.5 lbs total by the end of the year. Today I am sad to say that of that total I have gained back 77.3 lbs since January 2012. Ouch! That hurts in more ways than one.

The good news…yes there is good news Praise God! The good news is I have lost some damaged emotions, some fear and lots of bondage. Not 100% though as I am still a work in progress but over the course of the past 9 months I have actually seen growth in my life. Hallelujah!  I am very excited that I can see the growth because a few weeks ago I didn’t see it. It has been a very difficult year for me spiritually. I have struggled with so many mind wars that I thought I was defeated for sure. Ah but our awesome Jesus has people around me who are able to tell me the truth as they see all the things I don’t see through the fog of lies the enemy tries to keep me focused on. Well today I am happy to say that the fog is gone and I am seeing very clearly once again. So now it is time to get back to the vision for getting healthy and losing weight. I don’t exactly have a plan yet but I am going to start out with a few simple goals that I feel the Lord wants me to start with. I hope to share my progress along the way.

Now, would you allow me to share with you what I wrote back in 2008 that started this whole journey? Thank you so much! I hope this will help someone else or maybe it will just re-ignite my own passion. Here we go….

Subject: Confessions of an Addict (originally posted on MySpace – does anyone use that site anymore??)
Category: Religion/philosophy
Mood: Optimistic

I am an addict. There I said it. I am an addict. No I am not addicted to drugs or sex or anything like that. I am not even addicted to the Internet…anymore…wow this is going to be a painful blog. Sigh…Ok so here I am making confession today on this blog before God and man…I am a food addict.

Why am I sharing this with you today? Well on Saturday October 4, 2008, I was working (as usual) and I was listening to a song over and over because it hit me like a ton of bricks and just brought me to a wonderful place of worship. So there I was at work just singing and sobbing and working all at the same time. What song? Thank you for asking.

The song is:

I Give You my Heart…By Hillsong and here are the lyrics…

This is my desire, to honour You,
Lord with all my heart,
I worship You,
All I have within me, I give You praise,
All that I adore, is in You,

Lord I give You my heart,
I give You my soul,
I live for You alone,
Every breath that I take,
Every moment I’m awake,
Lord have Your way in me.

So now you may be sitting there thinking to yourself…what does this song have to do with being an addict? Probably nothing but God can use anything He wants to get a message across if we just incline our ears to listen…I was listening that Saturday.

I was supposed to write this blog that night when I got home but I didn’t and the next morning I know God spoke to me and said that I needed to write this blog as an act of worship. So I pray that He is glorified because I am finally being obedient…albeit over a month late. I shared this message with a group of women at church on Saturday November 8th as well and one of the women said I need to get this posted on my blog now that I’ve shared it.

The song really speaks of exactly what is in my heart. I desire to worship God with all my heart and soul. I desire to live for Him alone with every breath I take for every moment of every day that He allows me to be here and then for eternity. So in order for me to do that, I need to know Him intimately…I need to feast on the Word of God daily, memorize it (Hide the Word in my heart), speak it, pray it, listen to it so that I know everything possible about the Almighty Father in Heaven and My Savior and Lord Jesus Christ. But there’s a problem…its called sin. We all know that sin separates us from God before we accept Jesus as Savior and once we receive Him our sins are forgiven because afterall that is why He went to the cross. Colossians 2:13-15 “When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature, God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the written code, with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; he took it away, nailing it to the cross.”

We know this but I’m talking about the sin that snares the believer. See I am a believer; I have been a believer for a long time. Most of you who are reading this blog are believers. Now I confess that I have been a prodigal more times than I care to mention as well but I know that today I am a follower of Christ. So what does all of this have to do with my confession of being an addict, you ask? Well I am learning that this addiction of mine is really sin. I found this definition of sin that really applies here: “Doing something wrong that separates you from God.” Eating food is not wrong but when it consumes your time and keeps your focus off God then it is truly a problem.

“So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God” 1 Corinthians 10:31

I confess that I was not eating in a manner that was giving glory to God. I was actually eating so much that I had made food an idol. As I was preparing for my speaking engagement at church I was studying the fruit of the spirit and through that God fine tuned my message and showed me the area of fruit that He was pruning in my life and that is self control. So I just want to share a little bit of what I am learning about self control. You see the term itself can fool us if we are not thinking about it in a spiritual sense. Let’s see what the world’s definition of self control is:

The control of oneself; the ability to master one’s desires and impulses
en.wiktionary.org/wiki/self control

Self control to me in the context of being part of the fruit of the Sprit means that we give up self control to the Spirits control so that He helps us control ourselves. That is what the Lord wants from me; He wants me to give up control so He can help me control myself. God has placed people in my life to help me with this addiction and I have been working on these issues for several weeks now but I was only talking about my issues and exploring the reasons why I have this food addiction.

Well on October 31st I was challenged to take action and see how God would help me move beyond talking about my food addiction to actually conquering it.

My employer has a challenge twice a year as part of our wellness initiative and for 10 weeks we are challenged to eat healthy, exercise and record our efforts three times a week and then at the end of the challenge we all share in a prize pot if we maintain or lose weight. It costs 25.00 at the beginning of the challenge and then 20.00 of that becomes part of the prize pot at the end of the challenge. I have joined this challenge at least 3 or 4 times now and in the first challenge I did really well and lost weight but the next couple times I basically helped fatten the prize pot because I didn’t lose, maintain or even follow any of it. So I was determined that I would NOT join this time.

On October 31st during a benefit fair the table was set up for people to join the challenge and weigh in and get all your materials. So I got there and proceeded to tell the woman that I wasn’t going to do it this time and she of course started showing me the new tools and motivation materials. While she was talking another employee (who has also become a good friend) walks up and asks me if I am going to join and I said no. She said yes you are and proceeded to tell me that my excuses were not good enough and that I can do it. She then said she would be my accountability partner. So I changed my mind and decided to go ahead and join the challenge. So she comes and puts her arm around me and whispers in my ear “Now you know who sent me here to encourage you to do this challenge, don’t you?” and I smiled and replied “God” and she hugged me and said that we would do this together with His help and strength.

Well that day I didn’t really put much effort into the challenge and the weekend passed and I still had not even tried to eat healthier or eat any less. So on Monday morning I get to my office and find a piece of paper on my desk that had this scripture:

“Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is on earthly things.”  Philippians 3:19

My friend had written me a note with this scripture stating she read this and God shouted at her and she wanted Him to shout at me too. Well I know this scripture and in context it is not talking about a food addiction but I heard the shout of the Lord in this verse just as my friend heard it and from that moment I started making some changes. Today will be 9 days since I started that challenge and 6 days since making changes in my eating habits and today I am 9.1 pounds lighter. Praise God! The timing of all of this was absolutely perfect and verified to me that this was all in God’s planning not my own. I want to clarify one thing though, you see God was never off the throne in my life but the idol of food was blocking my view of God just like if you are looking out at the ocean and see how big it is and you can see for miles but if you place a dime before your eye you will not see that ocean anymore. My addiction to food was blocking my view of God and hindering my walk with Him. I confess that I have a long way to go in this journey but I praise God for showing me that it only takes yielding to His control will allow me to have self control. Yesterday I shared this message with a group of women at my church but there is so much more to this story and maybe I will share more with you in the future as the Lord leads me.

Right now to wrap up this blog I just want to share some scripture that helped me in this journey of mine. Learning about the fruit of the spirit was a journey to learning so much about myself and how we as Christians are to live our lives…

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.” Galatians 5:22-23

The key to this verse is that we have to depend on the Holy Spirit so let’s read on a little further:

“And those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.” Galatians 5:24-2

Let’s do some further reading…

“Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. “I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” John 15:4-5

“You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.” John 15:16

“So, my brothers, you also died to the law through the body of Christ, that you might belong to another, to him who was raised from the dead, in order that we might bear fruit to God.” Romans 7:4

“For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord.” Ephesians 5:8-10

“And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.” Philippians 1:9-12

Don’t you just love how the Word of God teaches us and guides us into all truth. God is awesome and He loves us so much. My prayer is that all those who read this blog will be blessed and encouraged. I also pray that you will be challenged to take inventory of your life to see if there is any fruit that needs pruning in your life. Allow the Lord to prune you as He has pruned me because ultimately we want to please Him and bring glory, praise and honor to God. The pruning process is part of God’s purpose of conforming us to the image of His Son, Jesus Christ. Hallelujah!

“For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers.”  Romans 8:29

Lord I give You my heart,
I give You my soul,
I live for You alone,
Every breath that I take,
Every moment I’m awake,
Lord have Your way in me.

Let this be our prayer today. God bless you all!

All scripture references are from the NIV Bible.

Thank you for taking the time to read this long-winded blog. God bless you all!!

I hope you will walk with me as I Revisit the Vision….“1 Corinthians 6:19-20 ~ Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.”

Get Back Up Already!

For the past few weeks I had a big problem…INERTIA. What is INERTIA? A quick Google lookup will give you this definition ” A tendency to do nothing or to remain unchanged” and Dictionary.com gives this definition: “inertness, especially with regard to effort, motion, action, and the like; inactivity; sluggishness.” Okay now stay with me here, I have been pondering this word INERTIA for a little while now and how it relates to my lack of exercise over the past few weeks.

Did you see the definitions? I see a lot of insight in this word. First I see that having this problem is keeping me at a stand still and  unchanged.  Then looking further we see inactivity and sluggishness, um that sounds like lazy to me! So let’s see what the Bible says about being lazy?… Proverbs 26:15 – “A sluggard buries his hand in the dish; he is too lazy to bring it back to his mouth.” Ouch, I would say that is lazy! So if a sluggard is the one who is lazy then what does the Bible say about a sluggard?…Proverbs 6:9 – “How long will you lie there, you sluggard? When will you get up from your sleep?” I’m thinking this is not a good thing! So then I looked up one more definition and this is what Merriam Webster says,  “a property of matter by which it remains at rest or in uniform motion in the same straight line unless acted upon by some external force. ”

Hmm, so that got me to thinking a little more and this is what I decided about myself, I am remaining still at rest and not moving my body on a daily basis which will leave me unchanged and could turn me into a sluggard so I need an external force to get me moving. Well I certainly don’t want that because I’ve been there, done that before and that’s why I am not at a healthy weight today. So I went through a time of thinking about this situation and I kept telling myself that I needed to get back into my exercise routine. Every morning I would plan it in my head and then I would go to work and come home and realize I had done nothing. That went on for a while and in my head I had great intentions. I would plan it out well as to the time of my workout and what I would do and everything. But alas, nothing. Each day I would come home and be too tired to do anything after working all day. Well to add to my problem, my weight started creeping back up because in the midst of my non-activity I was also making some very unwise food decisions.

It finally occurred to me that when you get off of a routine it is hard to get back started the longer you are off that routine. They say it takes 21 days to form a habit and I’m convinced it only takes about 3 days to lose that habit. Well I needed to get back to my routine. I was reminded of what Proverbs 24:16 a says “for though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again.” I needed to rise again, I needed to get back up, I needed to find my motivation! Interestingly when I looked at the definition for motivation in the Merriam Webster Dictionary,  it says “the act or process of motivating”, then the second definition says “a motivating force, stimulus, or influence”

Well that made sense to me especially in relation to the Merriam Webster definition of inertia, let’s read that definition one more time   “a property of matter by which it remains at rest or in uniform motion in the same straight line unless acted upon by some external force. ” I needed motivation to be my external force but for days I was looking in the wrong place. I was thinking I could do it on my own. I was thinking that I just needed to get back up already! Well of course, I failed. I was depending on myself, my own efforts, my own motivation that was basically non existent at that point. I had used all the “stress” excuses and all the “I’ll start tomorrow, today, in an hour, next week, Monday, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera” (in the voice of Yul Brynner of course).

I had to go back to find my original motivation and here it is right here…1 Corinthians 6: 19, “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you,whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought with a price. Therefore honor God with your body.” That is my motivation, that gives me my “want to”! I think I had forgotten that simple verse in the midst of the inertia and excuses. Yes it’s hard to get back up when you fall down, but it doesn’t take long to get back into a routine. It just takes having motivation and “want to”. My motivation is to honor God with my body and that is exactly what I intend to do on a daily basis. I got back started just yesterday but now that I have confessed before God and man and made the decision to “GET BACK UP ALREADY” I think I will be okay. So is there anything hindering you today from getting back up and exercising and making healthy food choices? I encourage you to find your motivation in God’s Word and let Him be your external force to get you back up again.